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~Pokemon: Guzma X Listener SFW: Sweet~ {Patreon Exclusive}
🕑 Added 2022-05-12 17:52:32 +0000 UTC
You certainly didn't expect this coming home today, but it's not unwelcome. In fact, it's actually really sweet.
Contains: Surprises, Confessions, Feelings, Neurodivergent! Guzma, Kissing
I've wanted to explore Guzma being neurodivergent in some form for a while, and so this audio sort of turned into that while I was writing it. I thought it would be nice that Guzma is a very literal type of neurodivergent person, so thinking about the theme of sweetness, the idea of him getting something sweet for the listener because of how sweet they are too him was too good to resist to me. I also wanted to delve into his past also a little and have him talk about his experiences with being different and how frustrating and depressing it can be, since a lot of ND people (including myself) have depression due to trauma over neurotypical people not understanding our needs and refusing to help meet them. So I just wanted Guzma to have a genuine interaction with someone who finally understands him. I hope you all enjoy!
~Audio Transcript Below~
Guzma: *shuddering breath*
H-hey.......
Um........surprise......
*pause*
Yeah.....this.....it's all.....for you.......
I uh.....wanted to do something special ....uh—cause it's the um......anniversary.....of when we met........and I um.......kind of went into a manic sort of....hyperfocus spiral........
I don't know how long I've been at it really....no.......
*deep breath*
I like you. I.....really, really, really, really like you.......
So much of my life has been spent just......going through the motions.....depressed outta my mind......feeling ostracized......thinking that there was nothing better in life......
That....I'd made all the wrong decisions.......that there was nothing really for me.......
That it would be better......without me........
And......you pulled me outta that pit........with your kindness.....and your willingness to put up with my bullshit........but also......how you just.......
You also made sure I knew when I was being an asshole........
You didn't beat around the bush, neither......which I fucking hate......
*pause*
Did you......?
I mean--*sighs*--was that intentional?
*long pause*
How did you look at me the same as everyone else did and see that I was falling apart on the inside when they didn't?
*pause*
I guess you're right......guess that means you didn't look at me the same.......
*pause*
*sighs* Honestly.......I don't know if it's better or worse knowing that it was intentional........
There are parts of me that still struggle with people's intentions.....with....responding in the 'right' way.........the way that seems to be so fucking easy for everyone else, but I still haven't seemed to be able to crack.
Still strugglin' with thinking that people do things because they want to........not because they have an obligation......or because......they're trying to get something out of it.........
You've helped me........you're like......one of the only people who finally when I explain these things to them they don't look at me like I've.....lost my fucking mind or something.......
I guess all this rambling and—*sighs*—making the thing about me again, shit.......
You're sweet.......you're really, really fucking sweet so........
I......got you some sweets......*laughs weakly* You know......like a joke?
*exhales softly*
You like it?
I know....I know I got a lot of things.....but I just.....I couldn't make up my mind at the store cause I'd pick something, but then see something else that also reminded me of you and how sweet you are and it kind of just snowballed into......into this........
I know it's silly....I just......I knew I had to so something for you......to remember this day.......
*pause*
And I'd be lying if I said.....it wasn't because I feel a little obligated after everything you've done for me---but---before you say anything.....I know that you didn't help me or become my friend just because you were looking for something in return.......
But I thought, 'It's still a nice surprise to get something even if you weren't expecting it,' yeah? And I also just wanted......to make you happy.....make you smile......brighten your day....whatever.......
And I know you like sweets too, so.......sweets all around.........
*pause*
I'm sorry if it's a little dumb, I—*soft kiss*
*slight wheezing exhale*
You, 'really, really, really, really like me too?'
I know.......I know you did....I just.......I need to hear it again......please.......
*pause*
*laughs into a big kiss*
I....I never thought I would have something.......someone like this in my life........
I never thought having someone like you......was for me.....
Thank you......*kiss*
*chuckles* Now that you've started it........the floodgates are open now......
That is.....if you're ok with that........
*soft kiss*
I guess.....we got more than enough to celebrate now..........
Comments
Mish
Absolutely love this!
