Ventity vent

ShadowPoni

I know... And yeah; have known about most of my issues for years, but have yet to figure out what "actually" helps them X/ And true. Although that heavily goes against my personality (I really prefer doing things alone, in general) ><;

ShadowPoni

Mainly trying to exercise more, and eat less processed/sugary food, if I can. That should (eventually) help both my mood and my energy

Blaze

Don't worry about it. Age doesn't matter, it's never too late to get support for your problems. You have 6 years on me, but thats fine. I've spent the last 8 trying to figure myself out, my problems out. Some people can do that in days. We all go at our own pace. We all need help sometimes. There is no shame in needing assistance. Nobody can do everything alone.

Seeing you improve your art over the years has been really nice to see. What do you think your plan will be for yourself? Seeing you get back up would be good. I look forward to seeing that :) And that's true ^^

ShadowPoni

...Huh. I hadn't considered that. Yeah, that might be what set me over the edge, here ^^;; And thank you. The last few hours I'd been thinking about... past stuff; and I came to the conclusion that, even if I think my life is horrendously out of my control, my skills are still leagues better than what they were (still not where I'd like them, sure, but better). And that happened only due to the effort I put into it; therefore, going to start trying to put more effort into myself in general. That's much easier said than done... but I have yet to fully hot rock bottom, and I'd rather go back up before that happens. X/ And thank you, again. Even if you think your perspective is limited, it's still different from my own. It's never a bad thing to consider things from different angles, when you can ^^

ShadowPoni

Yep... Realistically I should just try and get out more and exercise more often. It can't be good for my mental health that I just sit all day trying to draw... Well... should do that in addition to the meds, probably. ^^; And thank you. Aaalthough with my track record, I'll just feel bad taking up your time and end up with everything boiling over... like this. ><;

I think just how cute and nice the Cappuccino picture was.. and the story/context behind it… well, I think you need those cuddles yourself, so it prompted you to write your honest thoughts. I don’t think you’re a failure, even though things may not be where you want them to be. I am just a random person, but I dunno. I’ve seen your content since you started on DA, and you’re my favourite artist too. Might not mean much, but eh, it’s true. So from my (limited) perspective you’re not a waste… and I don’t see it as true that you’ve done nothing with your life. I do think it is spiralling though, everything you want to do is hanging over you, and preventing you from taking any action at all - kind of like a deer in the headlights. I’m not sure how you would tackle that.

Blaze

good to hear youre at least looking to get support for it. if it is indeed the main root of the problems you face, it can make a biiig difference to you. Ihope things workout alright for you - but im here if you wanna talk.

ShadowPoni

I know I have ADD; but they misdiagnosed me with ADHD as a kid. Am trying meds now, but... again, not a great psychiatrist, apparently. Says he'll send in the prescription so I have it till I go back to see him... and that was three days ago :/

Blaze

It is possible that you may have ADHD if you're struggling with focusing on other things - i'm no professional but it mightbe worth at thevery least looking into it. it's possible to remedy the effects of ADHD with medication which can make it easier to do things that arent so interesting to you - which lets face it - is going to need to get done. as i said - not a professional, just something to look into. getting medicated is the best thing two of my friends ever did, and I'm on a waiting list for my own medication now.