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An Apology
🕑 Added 2021-03-01 03:20:06 +0000 UTCThe third post today!
I must apologize to everyone who's still hanging on as a supporter right now. I wish I had more stuff to show you. I wish I had the energy and creative fire inflating my little artist balloon so that I could make stuff.
But I don't. I have had only five shoots so far this year, and three of those were paying clients whose images aren't the sort of thing I bring to your attention. Of the remaining two, one is the Pantheon Project first shoot, and the other... Is actually really great. It's an Ero-Sky shoot that I'll be showing you as soon as I can get the energy to work on it.
I don't consider myself an artist, I'm a camera technician. I don't get grand concepts and I don't understand things like colour and style. But I'm still suffering this utter void in my creative brain centres, like all my real artist friends are. I've got nothing, and some days even managing nothing is hard.
And I'm sorry for that. I'd feel super bad if I was just being lazy but some days it's all I can do to stare at the monitor blankly and click the mouse on stuff. It's weird and it's awful and I don't like it. The only comfort I can take is knowing that it's not just me. It's not everyone, but there's a lot of us. This world is weird and getting weirder.
I want to create the beauty. I want to make beautiful things and improve the world one beautiful hard working body at a time.
And it's starting to feel a bit like maybe, just maybe, I've got some ideas about that. Finally.
Stay tuned. <3
