spiralobsession
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A Message To All
🕑 Added 2024-06-14 21:18:42 +0000 UTCHey there doggy. I apologize for making you wait so long. I’m going to try to cut the sappy stuff so I can articulate my point better. So, sorry this is gonna feel blunt.
Clearly, I’m having trouble consistently producing content. For all who have continued to support me over the near seven fucking months of almost total radio silence: thank you. You are supporting a lifestyle that I struggle to convince myself I fully deserve. Let me make it clear: I’m not quitting. Though I think I need change.
Don’t let that scare you. Let me explain. A few reasons have led me to desire a change of format: I’m becoming increasingly disinterested in projecting myself as a sexual being when I am extremely extremely asexual. I don’t regret the content I’ve made, but for the sake of transparency: the sexual stuff always comes with a sense of dread, which leads to procrastination. I tend to avoid it in my writing process, usually leaving it to be funneled in at the end as an improv. While editing my content I find myself not wanting to experience the sexual content I’ve recorded for myself. If you’ve subscribed to my patron because you love the sexual release I provide: I’m sorry, but I’d really like to cut it from my content for a while. I truly am sorry to disappoint you, puppy.
Another reason I want change is because script writing has felt more and more difficult. My meticulously written scripts and hypnotic induction are just something that don’t cross my mind much these days. I’m not sure if they’ll completely cease, but I feel like they may become less of a focus if I am to pump out content on a more consistent basis.
I wanted to ask you, my dear doggy, if you would be open to the idea of more improv based content that may not always contain hypnotic suggestions. I’m so sorry to everyone that I’ve been stringing along month to month while they anticipate another file as great as my most well known ones. Truthfully I’ve always been worried that I could never live up to what I’ve already produced. I want to know your thoughts on what I’ve shared. Do you even care? Do you even remember you’re paying me month to month for essentially nothing? I’m so sorry for not being more consistent. I speak weekly with a therapist and one issue that always comes back is how much shame I feel for neglecting this aspect of my work. It’s finally time I take action that will help me leave the pressure and regret behind.
I want to have this patron focus more on the ASMR aspect. I feel best when I get to show my personality through organic dialogue. I want to whisper, tease, and inspire. I don’t just want to be a source for sexual release. I want to be consistent, I want to be present in your life, and I want to go back to when I breathed life into puppy play. I miss how it feels to release my work and wake up to thanks from users who told me I gave them their first positive experience with kink.
Sorry, this ended up actually getting really sappy. I’ve bottled these feelings up for so long and I don’t even know if they make sense. I wrote all this down while it’s very late and I can see the sun rising. I have a file that’s almost done. I just have to edit the sexual part. After I release that file, I’m going to try to record something new, yet familiar. Not exactly sure what yet, if I truly believe some of my best work comes from my improv. I think for now I’m done writing long scripts. Maybe I’ll come back to it someday. For now, I’d like to focus on hypnosis that happens organically through improv conversations that are intended to coerce you into puppyspace. See, the core is still the same, I’d just like to change my approach a bit. Sorry for getting all melodramatic. Please, let me know how you feel about this. This page is about you as much as it is about me.
I care about you.
Comments
Eight Cup Buck
Hi, new here! But, I’m literally here because your non-sexual files were a very positive introduction to puppy play, so, you got it. Whatever makes you happy! And thank you for sharing!
Lottie
yay! it's nice to hear from you! I'm sorry you are feeling so much grief about this but I have to say I'm pretty excited for this! I know personally I have absolutely adored your more improv based, non sexual content. I always thought it works really well cause the sexual stuff can sometimes feel like it lessens the more close, intamite and personal parts of your files that made me fall in love with your files in the first place! Excited for what's to come! And pls, take it as slow or as fast as you need, your content is perf but you feeling 100 is worth way more to me.
Amelia
I love your SFW audios, and I use them to sleep on loop almost everyday ❤️. I generally fall asleep within the first 10 minutes of the puppy one because your voice is very soothing. The breathing one is one of my favorites for naps.
NotAGirlEKIS
im so sorry youve been having a hard time dealing with this but im happy you have the confidence to go in the direction u want to take. the sexual content was a wonderful introduction to puppyplay for me but more importantly i have hella issues sleeping and you help me get rest so consistently with the few sleep files u have, ive even put on some of the NSFW files knowing i'd fall asleep to the beginning, your voice is just so so nice and im extremely excited for whatever you create next, and i've stayed subscribed for that exact reason. youre a unique creator and if this is what needs to happen for you to feel inspired and motivated then yes the fuck please <3
SpiralObsession
Its a very big comfort, actually. I really really appreciate the support. I look forward to trying my best to live up to the expectation people have for my next audio. thank you so much for this <3
SpiralObsession
Thank you so much for the support, doggy. Yeah, i was getting *pretty* burnt out on huge impressive scripts and stuff. I think changing to sfw will make me much more inclined to create more consistently.
Chops
Creating content that you're both comfortable with and enjoy is incredibly important to your own well being. Embrace change! SFW puppy is a vibe 🐶
V for Veronica
The sexual stuff was never really the main draw for me. Being hypnotized by your soothing voice into puppy space is just so relaxing and nice! The improv stuff is actually some of my favorite, it really lends an air of authenticity and realism that I enjoy. Don't do anything you don't want to do out of a feeling of obligation, that's a really easy way to get burnt out and hate the creative process. Make what YOU want to make!
sasha
If it's any comfort, the nonsexual asmr audios are some of the favorite ones, your aftercare file is one of my go to listens when I'm not feeling great. Speaking for myself I still follow on here to support you because I think you're a super cool poster and I want to support the work you do, regardless of what it is. I'm someone who's also on the ace spectrum and genuinely you just have a great voice and I honestly love the more off the cuff stuff you do. I don't want to ramble a ton but I can say for sure I'm not going anywhere
