Cigusa
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Apology and some updates, words I want to say (long)
🕑 Added 2021-05-10 02:56:35 +0000 UTCHey friends! Thank you for another month of support! The image is a WIP Celestia. I've been drawing this one for a long time but unable to finish it, and with that fact, here's some thing about me I want to let all of you know.
1. I apologize for no update for a month. The truth is I've been very frustrated and demotivated about my drawing work.
2.Most of the time I can not finish my pieces, or even continue to draw. I feel like at some point I become unable to put out a piece I'm happy with. Most of the time my drawing turns out to be rushed, failed, uncharming and pointless. Maybe some of you guys will look at them them and say they are fine, but the point is I myself stop to feel happy about what I have drawn.
3. The worse thing is, after I "finished" those unsatisfying works, I couldn't help but start to spend a lot of time to redraw them, a lot of time. And most of the time I still failed to make them better or at least make myself be happy with them.
4. In other words, either I couldn't finish drawings, or I would spend (WASTE) a lot of time redrawing things but failed eventually while getting nothing in return. This is the situation I've been in for the months and the reason I haven't update for a long time.
5. At this point I start to think It's the internet (mostly patreon) that makes me feel more stressful about drawing and is the reason of why I'm being in this kind of bad situation as well. Please don't get me wrong, I truly appreciate you all of your support here and have zero intention to blame any of you for being with me here. It's just that this monthly update start to make me rush things without satisfying results, and prevent me from slowly finishing thing which is the way I like when it comes to drawing.
6. Another bad thing is, I started to think about how my works will look on the internet pages when I draw, instead of how I want them to be like actually. Which may be another reason why I stop to feel good about my finished drawing.
7.I've thought of some solutions. First I want to focus on what I really want to draw without concerning how it will looks like on internet. Secondly I want to draw more quick-colored doodle like other artists, to prevent lack of content, even they are rough and unfinished. I'll make sure they are what I honestly want to draw at the first place, which will at least make myself happy first.
8. 2020 September pack has been sent, however I had some technical issue which stop me to send the November pack. (Patreon no responds with their bad message system. To be honest this site's bad design is another reason that give me the stress) I'll try send them another day!
Thank you for reading this long whining story. I really want to make drawing a fun thing again. And I truthfully appreciate all of you who not leaving me even when I'm in a slump/ less update situation but at this point I can't say "I'll do more drawing for you" honestly. Like I said my first priority will be drawing things I really like, such as thicc ass gals, ponies and maybe some my personal fetish things, to make myself happy about drawing again.
Let's see if things will get better for me. Love you all, and I wish you health and happiness!
Comments
sheq2
I see they've posted just this month. Wonder why they didn't reply to your comment.
Blat
You still there?
BurningDesire
Just continue to draw what you like and be a bit more confident in your artwork. If you would like more feedback etc don't be afraid to ask. Keep up the great artwork were not going anywhere if you need anything don't hesitate to ask us!
Tony Takara
Honestly i think the arts better when people enjoy what they draw. And i can relate when i finish stuff i spend time on it doesnt just make me feel like its good. Please dont overstress yourself. You should take itneady when you can. Also absolutely adore your Celestia arts and the brown skinned oni. Theyre fantastic
Anonimx
I understand you've had a hard time. I love all of your works. I try to keep my pledge on your Patreon because I want to support you. I hope you can find your muse soon, and hopefully you can draw more Goddess Celly and other girls ❤️
Pickleless
Oh geez, sorry if I added to that last minute. Thanks for having me, and I'm sorry your under such duress.
lawpocket
im not picky when it comes to your art!
Cigusa
Hattsy you are always cheering me up! Love you! and yeah I think rough/ quick-colored sketches will be my next focus!
Cigusa
I was drawing some femboys but maybe not with big asses haha
Cigusa
Thank you! That's my goal now! To be now stressed out and feel the joy of drawing again!
Hattsy
i know how it feels, but don't feel bad! i'd love to see you draw whatever makes you happy, whether it be the fully finished stuff or unfinished sketches - your art is a huge inspiration to me! hope all goes well for you cigusa 💕
lawpocket
love all your stuff. excited to see all the other fat ass girls (and hopefully boys) you bring out in the future.
Mr.Relish
No worries but I think you’re is amazing and I love the way you make them big thicc booty ladies. Please don’t stress out as much. Honestly doing stuff in Patreon is more a commitment if you missed a month of work and then have to work on that with the latest month it will keep piling up and causes a lot of stress. Please don’t overwork yourself my friend.💕
