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Christmas walk
🕑 Added 2022-12-24 18:22:15 +0000 UTCI wanted to share this short walk through our neighbourhood when we still had a bit of snow, which completely melted in the meantime. I also wanted to take the opportunity to wish everyone a merry Christmas, and a great peaceful time together with your family or your beloved, something I cannot claim about myself unfortunately.
I am so sorry to bother you with my own private life issues especially during this wonderful period and I wanted to avoid getting too personal with my life problems, but as all of you are supporting me allowing me to do what I do, I feel obliged to share some details about my current crisis.
Like already mentioned before, I have had some family grudge which is already lasting for longer. Every relationship has some up and downs, but this time it became really serious and it would seem as if me and my partner will have to separate with all consequences regarding our child, home, finances etc. The decision is from my partner's side, she hates me, hates what I am doing, thinks I am the biggest loser and retard in life. She claims to have wasted 20 years of her life with me with the biggest error being getting a child from me. At some certain point, there is no return anymore. I was beaten by her today trying to calm her down. She has always been very impulsive, throwing things at me, or destroying things in the house, but I always managed to find some balance with her again. Unfortunately this time I simply have no power anymore to handle this, she seems way more convinced and sure about her decision than usual. This will of course mean a lot of changes for me. Right now I am completely devastated because of this, despite some dispute here and there I always believed I could save our relationship, not only due to our son. I have spent nearly 20 years of my life with this woman being always loyal, thus I see her as part of my life even as part of myself, we had a very intense relationship and spent and shared nearly every day together, never being separated longer than a couple of days. Therefore I cannot believe and don't want to accept this fact it could be over.
All this will of course mean that we would have to sell our house. I have no plans for future, what to do, where to go. I have no idea how long this entire period will last, what to do next etc I am in a heavy depression right now because of this, aside from the story which just happened with Earfun recently, completely let me down and brought me to the edge of despair. I still have a video to finish putting the A28, A38 and A48 side by side. I already shot all footage but need to edit and finish the video. This all happened some days ago, just like the Christmas walk which I did earlier but right now I am not in a constitution to be able to shoot much else.
Despite all the support from you which I am really thankful for, I am still fighting with my finances every day, as I have to pay mostly all bills regarding our cars, home, shopping etc. Because of this I cannot buy any products for reviews right now. I don't know how long I will need to recover from everything, right now I cannot even think properly and am crying half the day. The only thing which helped me a bit to get through this crisis was to start with sports again. I want to keep this activity for longer as it definitely helps me to forget about the problems and also make me feel better. I am trying to get at least 1:30h of workout every day. Maybe this will also allow me to get more in shape again like I looked 23 years ago (together with my back then partner):
I will keep you updated of course as you are my only "real friends" right now. But please apologise if I don’t manage to react properly to your comments or inquiries. Losing your support will bury myself completely 🙏
Yours, O.
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So sorry for you Oluv, I‘ve been through this 12 Years ago, my wife left me for a spanish waiter when our son back then was only 2 years old, what a mess. Since then I‘m a single parent, having a full time job and having to care alone for my son, our financed house and so on. But I never quitted my passion, for it is being a musician and listen to music whenever I can. There are no really working general tipps one can give, for everyone has its own way to deal with bad things that will happen throughout our lives. The only thing I can say is, keep your passion and you have to know that you are a really valuable person, that deserves any respect one can give. Don’t believe in anything else and trust in yourself, that you always can make the best out of everything. If I could change my life to something better, you surely also can. As being one of the first supporters on your Patreon adventure and still here, I wish you all the best, stay strong and keep doing whatever is good for you. Back then I made a list of things I really love to do, and when I feel sad, I just take a look at it and then choose something beloved to do from it. We won‘t leave you so you are not alone.
Dosh Kalem
Cheers and condolences towards you oluv.
