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Change of plans in June
🕑 Added 2020-06-11 23:27:06 +0000 UTCHey everyone!
I've been dreading having to write a post like this, but I have to be honest, I am not doing well mentally or physically right now, I'm going through one of the toughest phases in my life so far.
I will spare the details, and try to be as straight forward as I can in saying I think I am going to need to take updates slower than usual for the rest of June.
Nothing is canceled and I'm not quitting (god, no) it just means some updates will be pushed back by a few days, or a week as I take some personal days to try and regain my composure.
I don't think this will effect any big releases in the long run. I am doing this to save my own skin so I can continue to work on this stuff at all in the first place...
I usually tend to recover from this kind of burnout pretty fast, but it hasn't been fast for me this time. I don't know if it's because of the state of the world, that all of this personal life stuff particularly stressful, or maybe I just reached some sort of limit-- I don't know.
Work has always been a source of strength and comfort for me. I love to work on my comics, my games, and commissions, and I still do! I don't think any of my work is the source of my stress right now; but more so it's hard to take on my giant workload when I am not at full HP, as it were. I want to finish work, and I am happy when I do, but I go into the battle of work with like 5 debuffs, y'know?
I have a very high standard for myself, and I strive to make as much as I can, as fast as I can, for me, and for all of you.
But, lately, it is just not sustainable. I need to take a second to breath, no matter how guilty and afraid it makes me feel.
I don't expect any of you here to be upset, because nobody ever has been (everyone has always been so nice, thank you) my fear is more so my anxiety in general. This idea of, "If I stop to take a break, something bad will happen, I will lose all momentum." But, this has rarely, if ever, been the case for me, and breaks have generally always been good for me.
It's only writing this now that I realize I usually do have a week long break in May/June because I usually go to Idaho and see my friends. I hope I can do it next year.
Anyways, I think this post is getting a bit rambly. I'm gonna take my eyes off my planner for today and tomorrow, see how that does me, and address stuff again after that.
I'll update things when I can, I'll reply to any urgent message, but generally let's consider the rest of June very... flexible... for my own sake.
Thank you all so much for your support, your patience, your kindness. You are all such a well of confidence and excitement for me, and I genuinely love making things for all of you to enjoy and I'm so glad we can make my stories come to fruition together.
I will recover.
