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Talking about my life until my feet fall off

🕑 Added 2024-11-12 15:42:00 +0000 UTC

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Bo Ea

Each time I watch one of your videos, you help me break through one or more of the blockages I have created during a long life in hiding. It always hurt to realise that the reason for why a blockage was needed was that I had been hurt, but if I had grappled with the underlying problem then instead of trying to conform, my life would have been different - probably happier. Getting to work through these problems now helps me open up to future possibilities I may otherwise have blocked out, so a big thanks for that. My parents both passed away this year, my father in January at the age of 90, after having suffered with Parkinson for more than 10 years - without me coming out to him, to spare him from further worries. When he died, I had come out to my mother, who I have known for decades was hiding she was trans masculine - which she also told me without me probing at that time. What I realised after my father’s death was the he also had been hiding some kind of gender nonconformity, and that he had probed me to see if I was transgender several times during my childhood and youth, which unfortunately just made me try even harder to hide. My parents had both had problems similar to mine, and I had inherited their non-solution to these problems. This confirms to me that hiding is harmful - not only to yourself, but also to those near to you. It may hurt in the beginning, but evading it will result in worse damage. I am left with many questions about my childhood, that I have not asked, and where the answers are now lost forever.

Kataleena A Cod Ray

Thank you! You said alot that was just nice to hear and I appreciate it. Also just nice future background noise cause I rewatch your videos often it's just overall good stuff for me to hear + I like your voice. Cheers