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An overdue update about the next video
🕑 Added 2025-03-01 05:49:36 +0000 UTCHey guys. First off, sorry that there hasn't been any word from me here. I've been doing a decent job of communicating my situation over discord and bluesky, but I should've made a Patreon post about things right now. I'm currently dealing with an abusive situation, and while I've *nearly* finally gotten them away from myself and my family, this situation has been like... A fire that needs to be put out again every single night. It's been going on like this for like 6 months now, but things really came to ahead in January.
My next video was *intended* to be the first *proper* episode of Torment: Session 2, however after much reflection, I feel like the whole concept of TS2 was ill-concieved. Not because it wasn't a compelling story I was planning, or because I didn't think I'd be able to execute on it to my satisfaction, but just because Torment Session 2, as a dramatic series, doesn't allow for the intimate feeling of a one-on-one conversation that I aim for with my videos. As many things as I wanted to say with TS2, I'd rather just say those things *directly* to you all, rather than leave my messages to lonely inference on the audience's part. I'll probably do a little side video as a kind of post-mortem for TS2 in the future.
So, whats come next instead? Well, initially I had written a video about Factorio, and how painfully temporary it's ability to take me away from this awful situation was. It's a good script, I'm almost definitely still going to make it, but one night, inspiration just struck in a very particular way for me.
I'd been hoping to do a video on Tyler The Creator's fifth album, Cherry Bomb, for years now. It's my favorite album of all time. I anticipated making this video in much the same way I did my original MGS2 video, "I can't wait until I'm talented enough to make this one". Well, upon some reflection, I'm absolutely ready to make not just a video on Cherry Bomb, but a video on Tyler's entire discography. I wrote up a 49 page script, so the final video should be about 1:40 long. Long story short, I found about a million ways to use Tyler's music to reflect on the abusive situation I'm in, and those are my absolute favorite types of videos I make. I've already begun shooting and editing, going through one album at a time. I've already shot the sections for Cherry Bomb and Flower Boy.
Cherry Bomb is all edited up and ready to be slotted into the final video, but I haven't even begun the Flower Boy edit. My plan is to release the Flower Boy chapter as a Patreon exclusive sneak peek. I think it's the best chapter to stand on its own, *and* to build anticipation for the full video. I normally don't like showing off unfinished work, but with how long it's been since my last upload, I really feel like I owe you all an apology, or at least something to watch ๐
Only issue is, my wife and I have kind of been pushed to taking shelter outside of our home for the time being. It'll only be a few weeks, and I'll see if I can get my computer here, but in the meantime, I've got extremely limited access to tech, and no real way to edit. Luckily there's still enough shooting to do that I can be productive, but that *will* unfortunately stop me from getting the Flower Boy chapter edited and uploaded to you all as quickly as I'd like.
Attached are a few screenshots though (sorry I don't have more to show you, I'm stuck with my phone ofc) Feeling *extremely* good about this video, and like I'm executing on a *lot* of the goals I layed out in my 2024 recap video.
Thank you all so much for your patience, and the vote of confidence that your continued patronage speaks to โค๏ธ I'm not gonna disappoint you
Comments
Vivien Violet
oh girl i am so sorry, sending support!! i hope your situation improves soon
MT Foxtrot
the tyler video sounds insanely promising!!!
