michaelhamm
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The ramblings of a madman
🕑 Added 2025-12-03 00:32:34 +0000 UTCHi Patreon! This is going to be a lot, but I just wanted to talk about what is coming up for December and how I have been feeling lately.
Let me start off by saying that I (for the first time in 10 years of Patreon) have run out of content. It honestly feels pretty embarrassing to be a content creator, who doesn’t have any content, but past few months have been pretty difficult. I lost my part-time job, I have been in nothing but massive fights with my parents, my roommate of eight years, moved out with one months notice, my cat (Harvey) passed away, I still haven’t been able to get hernia surgery, I’m on a four-year waiting list to get an MRI for my shoulder, I can’t work out the way I want, and I’ve been spending way too much money as a way of trying to look past all of this. To be fair, there is a lot more shit going on, but I do want to try to keep this slightly positive and maintain a small amount of privacy.
Anyway…
The point of giving you all the “woah is me” shit, is to help you understand why I’m feeling so emotionally drained, and mentally burnt out. The reason I want you to understand that I’m drained and mentally burnt out is because I’m going to spend the next month or two posting old content.
I really can’t get in the mindset to create anything new and even when I do start to create, I get negative thoughts in my head telling me over and over that I’m just a product and I need to fulfil the supply and demand. It sucks because even though that’s what my brain tells me, I know that that’s not the truth. That has never been what Patreon has been about and I refuse to let it become that.
Over the next two months, I want to take a bit of a break from the content creation and focus on building community. I want to post old photos and talk about them more. I want to read all the messages, I want to respond to all the comments, I want to get to know all of you and have you all get to know me. That has always been what I’ve wanted Patreon to be and I feel like this is a great way to get back to those roots and allow myself a little bit of room to breathe.
The world is such a mess and I feel like I’m a mess and I want to try and get out of that. So thank you all for behind here and helping me! Here’s to old content and new stories!
Comments
John Langley
You are a wonderful young man, Michael. I have thoroughly enjoyed everything you have shared and re-sharing is not a big deal. I hope you see brighter days ahead as we head to the New Year! Hugs!!!!
Heathen Soldier
You are a product! Mental heath first. So much content that I’ve missed between following you over the years, no complaints. Now if only my schedule would align to finally Skype after SO long
Jason Rose
We got you Mike. I have not been a member long, so old content will be a first for me. I hope things smooth out for you soon. Sending you much love. Peace be with you.
Chaos
Mental health is just as important as physical or emotional health, so I absolutely support you taking the time to step back and do what’s best for you.
xoxoFryGuy
I’m so sorry to hear all of this! I will definitely continue subscribing and let us know if there are any other ways we can support you. I, and I’m sure most others, will be happy with whatever you post, even if it’s past content. I’m just happy to support, be part of your community, and feel like I have some tiny connection to such a great guy and creator. Thanks for all you’ve done and all you will continue to do! 🩷
Dan Jeffrey
I'm proud of you for being able to express your emotions on this, bravo and I look forward to old content.
Michael Hamm
The community has always been amazing to me. It’s up to me to change the way I’ve been perceiving it. Comments like this really help, so thank you!
phoenix0826
I'm sorry things have been feeling so dark for you lately. I completely understand - my professional and personal lives (which I had way too closely intertwined) took a massive upheaval over the past year too. I appreciate you for having been a bit of lightness I could look forward to in my worst days, hopefully this community can become some of that for you now. Take care of your mental space and I for one am happy to come along for the ride.
Michael Hamm
If I can’t count on the people who support me most, who can I count on? ❤️
Michael Hamm
Might not be a bad idea. I meditate on and off but maybe consistency is key
Michael Hamm
Sir, yes sir!!
Dorothy Zbornak
So sorry to hear all the crap you're going through. We're here for you and I personally love your "old content". Bravo for being brave enough to lean into it and lean on us while you try to handle real life. 🩵
Jonathan Pouliot
Sorry you’re dealing with so much. Any of that in its own is a lot, let alone all combined. Highly recommend receiving a Life Activation and Emotional Cord Cutting, as well as getting in to meditation. If you’d like more information, let me know. 🙏🏼
Jared Martin
Holy moly that is a lot to be dealing with! Rest and recharge!
