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Miss Tira (NSFW)
🕑 Added 2024-09-01 15:06:14 +0000 UTCHey everyone, my apologies for not posting much lately.
Here is the drawing I teased previously, that almost got me quitting everything for good.
And I need to vent a little about it here, because it hasn't been fun. At all.
This one was a bit of an experiment (kind of based on what I already tried with my Karlach x Shadowheart picture) except this time I could not make sense of the lighting and the rendering. Nothing clicked and that scared me, I felt like I forgot everything about art, color theory... I spent a lot of time trying to salvage this, almost restarted it from scratch, and it became obvious that I would never have the time to properly do so. I just didn't believe in this image enough to justify all the time I had already put in it.
Also, when I thought about the fact that I hadn't posted anything for so long, starting another drawing and taking the risk of feeling the same way, not being able to finish the rendering and get stuck in a loop of not drawing/posting anything ever again... it makes me panic, and want to give up. A bit dramatic, yes, but anxiety does things to you... Fortunately, I'm used to it enough to know when to back up, chill, and move on. So this is a bit therapeutic (posting this picture despite how of feel about it, and complaining about it.)
Now I really have to move on and find another style if I want to get things rolling again. Maybe even, get back to the very old time where I didn't render my drawings at all; just threw random colors, left them flat and called it a day. Expect things to get... experimental. (I'm actually thinking of putting next month's billing on hold again, until I actually have time to draw and figure all of this out. Because I don't want to abuse your generous support, having barely anything good to show for it.)
So again, sorry about all this, I hope you guys are all doing OK.
I would actually love to hear about you guys; where are you in your life, is everything going alright ?
Comments
Grand Sage
Well thanks a lot, it does make me feel a bit better to see people enjoy it ! And yeah I get the struggle haha, I've had a few times this summer where ordering out or going to the restaurant added up a bit too much... Those numbers stack really fast !
Grand Sage
Thank you very much for your kind words, reading your comments also always make things better ! I hope Life gets less chaotic for you soon enough. I don't know how serious all of this is, but I can empathise with that kind of hardships... Take care of yourself !
NuFlash
I agree that I think this came out fantastic! It's unfortunate it caused you such agony but I'm glad you stepped away as you needed. Hopefully you can find a method you're satisfied with that let's you continue to share. Thank you for sharing and I'm just glad to see ya post. Life is fine on my end. Just got to be better about not ordering out so often. Eats into the budget more than I would like
CHUPLAZ
Despite you not feeling completely satisfied with this piece, I think it came out fantastic. Color and pose immediately captured me. Though I will admit I have a very basic understanding of color theory, and barely any regarding rendering and lighting. I can say life is at a controlled chaos right now for me with legal things popping up and monetary obligations becoming a reality. Couldn't say the same months ago (it being controlled) but we move forward. Year has been a downer but seeing art from you definitely makes things better.
