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If I'm Honest - Picture Perfect (Ch 1)
🕑 Added 2023-09-15 22:35:32 +0000 UTCThe first chapter of my Patreon exclusive story, with chapters going up a minimum of 2 months in advance of public posts. Please let me know in the comments if you feel that this is about the right amount of time for them to be exclusive for it there's any thoughts there.
This story is a spin off of one by CorruptingPower, similar to Quaranteam UK. Once again done with his blessing, and my gratitude. Reading his story first is far from compulsory, but is hugely recommended because of how good it is.
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Chapter 1 - Toronto, Canada
As the first of the fireworks painted colour across the night sky it was hard not to hope that 2022 was going to be where things started to change for me. Of course I had no idea then just how true that would end up being.
I’ve always loved New Years. And not just for the parties, even if I’ve been to some amazing ones. There’s a neatness to them, a chance to feel like you’re closing one volume and opening a new one; blank pages, pristine with potential, waiting to see what plans and hopes you choose to put to them. Even as a kid I saw resolutions as a sort of promise to myself, letting me set a destination and find a route towards what I wanted. I’d been meandering, in need of an excuse to try and find direction, and so there was comfort in the fact I already had this year’s neatly written out and tucked away in the back of my wallet.
‘Riley - get your career back to where you want it, put yourself first, the world won’t wait for women like you’
There weren’t exactly many worse careers to have during 2020 than a travel photographer and, despite my hopes, 2021 hadn’t been much better. Taking pictures is all I’ve been obsessed with doing since I was a little girl. Covid couldn’t have come at much of a worse time for me, and while I’d been smart enough to set aside enough savings for the rainy days, the professional setbacks had been enough to leave me in tears more than once. I was still young enough to be fighting to make a name for myself, and I’d finally got to a point where the likes of Lonely Planet were interested enough in what I was sending them to start picking up expenses for me. The dream of travelling the world doing the one thing I loved, on someone else’s dime, had been right there, practically brushing against my finger tips, only to slip away as the world locked itself down. And now, while I wasn’t quite back at square one, it certainly felt close. Stuck back in Toronto dreaming of the places I might have been instead.
Cheers came from inside the party as the clock ticked from one year into the next, but I hadn’t planned to be in there from the moment Alice had invited me to her party. My best friend’s downtown apartment had the most incredible view of the CN Tower and the opportunity was always going to be too good for me to pass on. I’d spent the better part of half an hour getting my camera set up, painstakingly exacting with my focus and framing despite the fact the jeans and thin jacket I’d picked out were definitely inadequate for the Canadian cold.
My wardrobe was carefully cultivated like most other things in my life, the sort of casual that only comes with effort. And it was effort well worth it, since being on the taller side meant that extra bit of care made all the difference between simply seeming awkwardly lanky and the right sort of girls swooning. I’d dyed my hair a deep azure a few months into the last lockdown, shifting from the previous green to something that reminded me of open skies I felt a world away from. However, as I worked and the chill set in, I cursed myself for deciding showing off the colour was more important than bringing a hat.
Capturing the landmark lit up by fireworks was hardly going to be award winning, but with that little extra care and talent there was definitely the potential there for at least one of the stock photography agencies to be interested. And there was the added bonus of not being around the couples sharing new years kisses, reminding me of just how much of a disaster that part of my life also was. That wasn’t even something I could blame on a pandemic.
I’d stopped to double check the exposure levels on the first volley of shots I’d taken when the party came to me instead. The too-blonde couple that spilled drunkenly out onto the balcony alongside me had been over familiar with each other all night, younger than most of the other guests and buzzed enough to be just slightly too loud for the occasion. She clutched at him with candy pink nails, enthusiastically kissing as his hand fumbled its way up her skirt and accidentally flashed me a glimpse of black panties. I didn’t resent them having a good time, I’d definitely been there myself at that age, but I did resent the way they staggered towards where I’d set my camera.
“Hey, come on, be careful with that,” I demanded. I couldn’t have been much more obvious with my indignation as their making out carried the girl back into the balcony railing I had clamped my camera to, disturbing it with a rough jolt. They ignored me, too intoxicated to care about the woman with the blue pixie cut glaring at them.
I tried to ignore them in return, passive aggression coming a little too easily to me as I made a point of standing my ground to return to my photography. They had as much right to be out here as I did, perhaps more, they were the ones actually getting into the spirit of the occasion anyway, but I intended to make things as uncomfortable as possible until they left. And I prayed it wouldn’t take them long. This was meant to be the highlight of my evening, the thing I’d been looking forward to for a week, now intruded on by cheap alcohol and reminders of the romance I wasn’t getting.
It was when a stray elbow bumped directly into my gear however that my attempt at hostile indifference failed. The camera was the one I had bought with my first cheque from NatGeo and the sudden concern it might get knocked over the edge made my stomach flip. I’d honestly have rather seen myself go over the rail before it did, and with a surge of concern I found myself trying to drag the girl away before she found a way to damage it.
“I said be careful!”
I regretted slightly how unflatteringly rough I was, but didn’t cope well with things being disrupted. The girl was quick to slur out a protest at the insensitive hand grabbing her, and she pulled back away from me towards the warm light of the balcony door. “Oww, what the fuck’s your problem.”
“Do you have any idea how much this thing costs?” Not exactly classy of me. “Drunken idiots who can’t watch what they’re doing are my problem. How about you both just fuck off already.”
Even now, I’m not entirely sure what made me lose my cool quite as badly as I did. Over protectiveness of my camera? Obviously, that was a given, but probably shouldn’t have made me feel quite as uptight as I did. Perhaps it was how much I’d anticipated doing this and I was a little too fragile from the last few years to feel it was being spoiled. Or maybe I resented the inauspicious turn my new start was already taking. With hindsight however I’m pretty sure there was a lot of my own unhappiness caught up in things, left exposed by other people’s intimacy.
I can’t remember the exact words that were exchanged, just that the man was apologetic, his partner confrontational. I do remember the feeling of trying to convince myself that I was ok, brushing off the lingering dissatisfaction and pushing it down. The tension only really eased when Alice emerged to join me a few minutes later.
I’d known her since kindergarten. I was quiet, stubborn and wilful while she was loud and easy going, a classic case of opposites attracting. She was the first one I’d confessed my sexuality to, almost before I’d even admitted it to myself, been the one who’d tolerated my emo phase, saw me through a dozen hair colours and just as many break ups. She’d watched me go from an awkward disaster of a teenager to a self assured disaster of an adult. And I’d returned the favour, being there through her own fumbling missteps.
“Well someone looks cheery,” she jibed, sliding the door shut behind her before shivering slightly. “It’s fucking freezing out here Riley. My party can’t be that bad that you’d rather kill yourself out here can it?”
“A Toronto winter or being back in there as a third wheel to you and your jailbait? I choose the hypothermia.” I managed to tease back.
Alice had always been gorgeous, with red hair and freckles that she claimed made her self conscious but that I’d have taken from her in a heartbeat. While I was all slim and slender angles, she had curves that made me wonder more than once if I was in love with her or just dumb and horny. I’d always found it oddly reassuring that even with all her looks and charm her attempts at romance seemed just as tragic as my queer car-crash of a lovelife. If beautiful, painfully hetero Alice struggled too then maybe that was just how things were and maybe it wasn’t just that I was horribly defective. But showing up at the party that evening I knew instantly that that comfort was gone.
It was my first time getting to meet Anton in person. My immediate reaction on learning of her new boyfriend, who’d previously only existed in the abstract on her excited Whatsapp messages, had been decidedly sceptical. We were both pushing thirty and he was still in college, practically an infant. He could barely even drink legally. And I couldn’t quite manage to get my head around what she was doing with him, at least until I saw them together. I’d never seen her that happy quite like that before.
Anton was a little shy, awkward both socially and in his body he was still in the process of filling out. But he also had a sense of humour even drier than mine whenever he relaxed enough to use it and was attentive without being overbearing any time Alice was nearby. It was obvious how well he balanced her out, much like I’d always thought I did, and the way they moved around each other practically felt choreographed, so obviously at ease in a space together that it was almost poetic. I was thrilled for her, and it hurt like hell.
“Get the pictures you wanted,” she asked, nodding in the direction of the camera.
I gave a noncommittal shrug. “I got some pictures. I was interrupted so we’ll see how they turn out in the edit.”
“Lindsay was ranting about some uptight blue haired bitch with a camera, and couldn’t help but think how much that sounded exactly like my best friend. I thought better see if you were ok”
“I’m good.” I replied, realising that my voice was hardly selling it. Alice gave me a flat look and I instinctively reached for a further protest long before I could actually stop to ask myself if it was true. “What? Really. I’m good.”
“Buuuuuullshit. Don’t pretend I can’t see right through you Riley Levesque. You’ve been uptight all evening.”
If it had been anyone but Alice I probably would have told them to back off, but it was impossible to really feel like she was ever being judgemental with me. Instead I just told myself that if I was a little uptight right now it was only natural. Toronto was where we lived, but it never felt like home for me the way it did for her and I’d been caged up here away from what I loved doing for far too long. Anything else was just secondary to that.
“What? I’m just nervous about this interview next week and eager to get back out of this city and into the world again.”
“So this definitely isn’t about Anton?”
I absolutely refused to admit it to myself then but it was definitely more than a little about Anton. Even before the pandemic things never quite seemed to work out for me. I knew that I was able to get attention, but it never seemed to be from the right sort of woman, and every girlfriend I’d ever had seemed to leave me more wounded by my own failed expectations. I’d taken to closing myself off instead and had gotten good at putting all the other joys I wanted out of life first. But seeing how they were together…
“What?” I asked, defensively. ”Just because you’re all lovestruck now doesn’t mean I’m suddenly missing something.”
Alice’s eyes fixed upon me and for a moment I felt her look cut straight through my bluster. “You know Riley, sometimes your biggest problem is that you aren’t even honest with yourself.”
Naturally my reaction was to build the wall straight back up again and hide myself behind it.
“Yeah, well how about screw you. I know what I want,” I insisted. I wanted to see the world, take the perfect pictures, to live unburdened, just for me. Fuck needing anyone else to complete that. And I wanted the nagging feeling that that wasn’t enough to shut up and leave me alone.
Alice was blunt. “Do you?”
No. I really didn’t.
But once again I pushed away the concerns, characteristically single minded in my reply. “Of course I do. And even if I didn’t it’s not like someone’s going to wave a wand or some genie is going to appear and fix things for me.”
“I wouldn’t be so sure,” Alice said coyly. I felt the redhead’s hand around my wrist, followed by the cool touch of metal, cooled by the winter air, against my skin. In that moment I was aware that the fireworks had started to died down and the sounds of the city all suddenly felt very distant. The bright colours of new years eve shrunk away, narrowing to pin pricks at the edges of my senses, leaving just Alice and I in the dull yellow of the balcony light. There was the heaviness and weight of expectation that had come with the first time I’d kissed another girl, but I struggled trying to place precisely where it was coming from. Alice smiled at me, and I looked down to see a plain silver bracelet sat on my wrist, a long narrow bar held in place with a small number of simple links.
The only adornment to the item were two latin words that looked up purposefully at me from where they were inscribed across the bar.
‘SOLAM VERITATEM’
I blinked and looked back at Alice, trying to find understanding there. Obviously we’d bought gifts for each other before but what seemed to be pure silver jewellery was more than the sort of gift you just bought for a friend.
“It belonged to Anton,” she said, offering an explanation that was no explanation at all. “We talked a lot about who should have it next and he decided he wanted it to come to you.”
I was off balance, unsure of the spirit that the gift was being given in but certain it wasn’t something I could just accept. The clasp didn’t budge however as I tried to ease it open and the links were too snug against my arm for any attempt to slide it off. I gave a small, uncomfortable laugh.
“Right, good joke, but you know I can’t take something like this from you. Help me get it off.”
She simply shook her head at me, the same elusive smile stuck on her face, amused by my reaction. “You need a little more luck and a lot more honesty in your life Riley. I’m sure Anton will share his story with you eventually, but we agreed you should probably work through a few things on your own first. I know you and you’re just going to make it harder for yourself if we tell you up front.”
My frustration built, and she was making it hard for me to not want to dig my heels in already. Alice knew I hated ambiguity, but that seemed to just be entertaining her more. I pulled again at the bracelet, only stopping when she reached over and gently stopped me.
“You’ll probably end up cursing us for this before you thank us, but you will in the end. Thank us that is.”
“You’re making this sound like some sort of cult. I’m not going to lie, I’m getting a tiny bit freaked out here.” The theories I had for what was going on ended up being fairly off. My first thought that it was some sort of religious thing was closer than I realised, but that seemed so out of character for Alice that I couldn’t shake the notion that something like drugs had to be involved too. Blackmail was possible, but then I doubted she’d be so happy. But magic? Magic certainly wasn’t anywhere near my top ten.
Her voice turned firmer as I tried a final time at the clasp, convinced there must be some sort of trick to it, “will you just stop being so bull headed and trust me for once?”
“You are making it really fucking hard,” I noted, honesty coming easy that time.
Alice sighed, exasperated, although I’m not entirely sure what she’d expected differently from me. “Ok, look, it’s not coming off now and I don’t think there’s anything I can do to change that, even if I wanted to. Which I don’t. Keep an open mind for a week or two, for me, and I’ll have Anton answer any questions you still have after that.” She saw how doubtful my expression was and rolled her eyes. “Or you could just fight it like everything else.”
“Alice, I don’t even know what ‘it’ is.”
“Looks like you’re not getting any choice but to find out,” she said, heading back in the direction of the balcony door and the warmth inside. “Try not to hate me too much.”
I did trust her, I really did, but I was more confused than anything and the way she was talking seemed to be massively overstating the significance a bracelet could have, leaving too many unknowns and questions for me to know how I was meant to react. It would turn out she was doing her best to understate things, and did know me well enough to understand that if she’d tried to tell me then I probably wouldn’t have handled things well.
“I suppose we’ll see in a week's time,” I settled on, half-heartedly, but still reaching for anything to show I was at least trying to humour her. “Happy new year?”
The final three words brought a smile to Alice’s face, left pink by even her short time in the evening chill, and she moved to place a soft kiss on my cheek. When she spoke it was with a sincerity that seemed to come out of nowhere. “If I’m honest Riley, I’m sorry I can’t be the one you need, and if I was gay I’d have dated you in a heartbeat. I just hope you don’t make this too hard before you find someone who can kick some sense into you.”
The confession left me stunned, finding a way to pick through my defences and tease vulnerabilities to the surface, enough that I left her to melt away back into the glow of the party without another word. I lingered a while longer, alone in the cold with my camera, the CN tower and the shouts and sirens of the Toronto new year.
It was 2022 and I had no idea how much of a corner things had just turned.
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Snow was starting to pepper the sidewalk when I left a short time later, making my way up Yonge Street in search of a cab. I’d made the mistake of leaving a little before 1am, just as everyone else was starting to make their way home, and Uber was unhelpfully saying how it would be over an hour before a driver could get to me. There was nothing stopping me staying at Alice’s place longer other than an odd anxiety that I had somewhere else I really needed to be that had come out of nowhere a little after midnight. I really felt as if I was about to be late for something, but I had no idea what, and it was a while before I’d understand I was getting my first taste of the bracelet’s influence.
I’d covered a few blocks before spotting a cab with its lights on, and stepped to the edge of the curb to flag it down. In doing so I practically walked into another woman who’d moved to do the same, and had to reach out a hand to stop myself knocking her into the street. I could swear I recognised her but couldn’t place from where. She was a few years older than me, extremely well put together with wavy chestnut hair that had to have been done at a salon within the last few days. She had an expensive cream coloured coat bundled around her and as we both apologised to each other (some Canadian stereotypes ring true) she did so with a pretty Quebecois accent.
The cab pulled up, headlights illuminating us, and the driver paused expectantly as we both waited for the other to reach for the door. It was only then that I realised I was still holding her, one hand gently resting on her upper arm, and the smile and blush she gave me set my gaydar screaming.
“You take it,” I tried to insist, letting her go and already taking several steps backwards. “There’ll be another one in a minute.”
I got several paces further when she called back at me. “Which way are you going?”
“Out towards North York, I’ll be fine.”
She opened the cab door, and I was about to keep walking until she leaned in and said, “we’ll share,” to the driver loud enough to make sure I could hear. The snow was coming down more heavily now, large wet flakes in my hair, and it was hard to argue when she pointed out, “I don’t want you freezing on my conscience.”
“I don’t want you going out of your way for me,” I tried politeness one final time, but felt circumstances continuing to lurch hard enough that getting into this car with this woman seemed like surrendering to the inevitable.
“Who says I am? You’re heading the same direction. Now get in.”
I relented, easing myself and my camera bag into the back seat alongside her. She’d already opened her coat, an elegant black blouse waiting underneath, although several of the top buttons remained undone, leaving her cleavage to plunge provocatively at the corner of my eyeline. She caught me looking, and smiled again, flicking her head in the direction of the driver to signal that I should probably let him know where we were headed. As I obliged, her hand slid onto my thigh, and I had to stop myself from mumbling the last few syllables of my address like an idiot.
“So, do you have a name or am I just going to have to call you The Fuckable Girl With Blue Hair?” Fuck she was forward. I’ve always leaned towards assertive women, and despite being half a foot taller than her I found myself blathering the answer as if she was towering over me, her energy making my heart skip.
“Riley, I’m Riley.”
“I like it, you look like a Riley,” she said, eye contact intense and more than a little hungry. Her hand moved from my leg, and she instead offered it to shake, along with her own name. “Dani.”
“That suits you too?” I’m not so sure it did, she was more of a Grace or a Sophia to my mind, but she had me off balance and I grasped at the first reply that came to my mind, taking inanity over silence as I shook her hand. I’ve never claimed to be especially smooth.
It got a chuckle from her at least. “No date for the evening then? Or were you working?”
“Sort of? I’m a photographer,” I said, patting my camera bag. “My friend’s apartment has an amazing view of downtown so I might have used her party as an excuse to get pictures. It’s…starting to feel like a bit of a weird night honestly.”
“Weird can be good. Do you mind if I see?”
“Before I’ve had a chance to edit them? Hell no.” I’m a bit precious about my process and hate anyone judging my work until I’ve had a chance to get the images into Lightroom. It might not make a difference to most people looking at them, but it matters to me. I need to know every detail and value is flawless. I caught myself in how abrupt that sounded, and back pedalled. “Sorry, the curse of being a perfectionist. I can show you some of what’s on my Insta instead?”
I took out my phone and Dani used it as an excuse to lean in, pressing up against me on the back seat to look. Her hand wandered back to my thigh, rubbing inwards unambiguously, as if testing whether I would make her stop. It wasn’t entirely like me to let her but something kept me from wanting to say no, and I was almost as aware of the sudden warmth of the bracelet on my wrist as I was her touch.
I managed to inelegantly show her several of my favourite images for the next few blocks without ever quite managing to compose myself under her attention. Silk Road Samarkand, Suzhou’s canals, Mexico City, the skyscrapers in Dubai, some of my best work, all stumbled through as her hand slowly worked itself closer to my crotch.
“You must really love your job,” Dani practically whispered, making me aware of just how close to my ear her mouth had become. I went to answer, but lost the chance as she kissed at my neck, the barest trace of teeth nipping me. I bit my own lip rather than make a noise and draw the driver’s attention, only to gasp anyway as her hand finally cupped firmly between my legs, pressing at my cunt through my jeans.
“Yeah…I really do…”
“And you must meet some interesting people,” she smirked, enjoying my strained response.
“A few.”
I did. Getting to meet people and see their worlds was a big appeal of the job to me, but interesting felt relative right now. Gorgeous strangers appearing to practically finger me in the back of a taxi minutes after meeting them was definitely a new sort of encounter for me. It was almost unnatural, rushed, an odd sort of compulsion carrying us towards the outcome, but as she kissed me in earnest I didn’t want more than to be swept along. It felt like a mistake waiting to happen, but when it came to love I was good at those.
We made out, and Dani got as far as slipping her hand up my top by the time we reached North York. My chest is what you could generously describe as slight for my frame, pert little mounds that struggle to fill a b-cup, but I’ve always adored having my nipples played with. Deftly she plucked and teased, and I cursed inwardly as we arrived outside my apartment. Not seeming to care about how much of a show the driver received, Dani rolled one of the nubs firmly between her fingers, pinching slightly to punctuate the question she then asked.
“Are you going to invite me up?”
Of course I fucking was.
The trip between the cab and apartment remains a bit of a blur. I remember Dani’s tongue in my mouth as we rode the elevator. And I know that my belt was already half undone as I tried to find my door key, struggling with the lock even as her hand groped at my ass.
I’ve never been so careless setting aside my camera gear as I was then, tossing it in the direction of the couch even as the door slammed behind us and we headed for the bedroom. Half our clothes didn’t make it that far, my jacket and jeans joining her blouse on the floor long before she pushed me backwards onto the sheets. Any rational part of my mind should have been asking what was going on, why a woman I knew nothing about was throwing herself at me like this, but any rational part of my mind was drowning in a desperation for contact that hadn’t been scratched since long before the pandemic. And definitely never like this.
The pace only slowed when Dani climbed onto the bed with me, an almost predatory glint in her eye as she peeled away her bra. I would become used to catching glimpses of her chest in the months to follow but never delighted in it any less than I did that first time. Their heft was perfect, ample swells just slightly too big for one palm crowned with broad pink areolas, and I swore at the sight of her.
Taking my hand in hers, she guided it to her mouth and seductively slipped two of my fingers between her lips, running her tongue across them until they turned slick. Satisfied, she guided them down her body, trailing damp between her tits and across the soft curve of her stomach. Then down further still inside her panties. We kissed again and she caught my breath with a throaty moan as I curled inside into the wet heat of her pussy.
We fucked with her on top of me. Fingers buried inside each other. Bodies pressed together. Mouths on flesh. She strummed at my clit, wonderfully sensitive to her touch, and she drew cries from me until I came loudly, gushing across her hand.
We fucked with me propped up against the pillows. I clutched at the headboard and Dani’s firm hands held my thighs apart as her head sank between my legs. She explored across the shaved swell of my mons, lingered across the neat pink of my folds. She eased her tongue inside me, licked, suckled, teased. My chest heaved and I tried not to scream.
We fucked with our cunts pressed together and I pawed at my own chest, my eyes pressed shut as Dani set the pace. It was little more than I could do to splay across the sheets, clumsily bucking my hips to grind against her. She toyed with herself, left me anxious that this was as good for her as it was for me, and I was relieved when she climaxed hard, slumping against me.
Eventually I fell back, eyes cast towards the ceiling as I caught my breath, and tried to force everything to slow down and make sense again.
I ran a hand through my hair, and as I did so Alice’s silver bracelet once again felt conspicuous against my skin. It was an odd observation then, and doesn’t make that much more sense now, but it almost seemed satisfied. It was a simple piece of jewellery, but I was as convinced of that feeling as I would have been looking at the expression plain upon someone’s face.
Dani shifted and made herself comfortable alongside me. There was a final kiss to my neck before she spoke the first words either of us had said to the other since entering my apartment. “If I’m honest, I’ll stay until morning, but I don’t think I’m what you want. I’ve just come out of something long term and couldn’t stand being in an empty bed tonight. I’d like to stay in touch, but I’ve got too many of my own issues to be patient enough with any of yours.”
There was a small shift as she finished speaking. Whatever spell had held us in its grasp loosened and it felt as if the air rushed back into the room all at once and the rest of the world came into focus. Although if Dani appreciated any of that she did so languidly. I blinked at her, confused at exactly where a statement like that had come from, even more so by the fact the first words out her mouth were exactly the same ones Alice had used earlier. ‘If I’m Honest.’
“Excuse me,” I managed to ask without sounding too blunt.
The other woman gave a small shrug, easing against me, her hair now far from pristine and looking even more appealing with it. “I don’t really know where that came from, it just felt right to say.” She paused, suddenly self conscious, and gave me an apologetic look. “Sorry. I can go if you’d rather?”
“No,” I said hurriedly, even in light of what she’d said. It’s not like I even thought I needed someone to fix me then. “I enjoyed that, can we not spoil it?”
Dani nodded gratefully and her pleasing curves rolled out of bed. “Which way is the bathroom?”
“Second left, just past the picture of Mount Fuji.”
“Nice choice. I spent a year reporting out there you know,” she noted idly as she disappeared from sight, the statement prompting me to realise suddenly where I recognised her from. CTV, the local broadcaster, any time I was awake early enough to catch the morning bulletins. Although I was pretty sure she went by Danielle on tv. And I was definitely sure she wasn’t out. I had a bunch of rules for myself when it came to dating but there were two I hated breaking more than any others; no rebounds, and no-one still in the closet. Neither ever ended well. Apparently it was the sort of night where I was ignoring both.
I rolled over and groaned into the pillow, wondering what the hell had gotten into me. It would take me a little longer to figure that one out, although my first clue came the next morning when I finally bothered to google the latin inscribed on the bracelet.
‘SOLAM VERITATEM’ - Only The Truth
