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[Feed] July Update
🕑 Added 2020-07-15 20:04:28 +0000 UTC
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Sorry about the radio silence for the last few days. I’ve been feeling strangely exhausted and I was also completely nocturnal until yesterday. I’ve been really tired a lot lately…
Could be linked to work, stress, and a lack of eating.
I’ve been struggling with motivation too. I don’t think it’s necessarily impacted my work output, because I don’t think I work out of motivation. But it is getting more difficult to get up in the morning or see any value in what I’m doing… Because what am I even working towards? What is the point of trying? Bad place to be.
In a previous poll, we concluded that most of you are pledged simply to support me more than you’re here for specific rewards, which helps with prioritizing quality over quantity. But it’s a tough transition to make, because I don’t want to disappoint you, so I worry about not producing enough content.
There are so many things that I think I want to do, and so many things that I have to do, and with the circumstances being what they are… It’s a bit overwhelming. It feels like I'm still not doing enough.
Although it’s easy to suggest taking better care of myself at the expense of my output, it’s much easier to suggest it than it is to accept the results of the act, especially when you’re giving money. Still, I feel like I need to change my relationship with my work somehow…
Anyway...
What still needs to be done?
- 1 Dungeon Master Illustration (this week)
- 1 Voting Gauntlet Illustration (next week, votes required)
- Concept Art Post (next week, will probably be fairly light)
I have some freelance work that I need to get to, and I’d like to do a few of your suggestions too. I’m unsure if I’m going to have much, if any, energy to spend towards commissions, this month, though.
Maybe I'm needlessly worried about this month's work than I need to be, and I'm just tired.
Not too much to say in this post. I wish I had a lot more interesting stuff to say in them.
Don't forget to eat & sleep.
