KUREHA
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update: i have a dizzy head
🕑 Added 2025-10-13 23:24:47 +0000 UTCTL;DR: i'm taking a very brief break for my health. very brief. like a couple days max or i'll go insane. i scheduled some posts, so my socials will be updated like normal.
no clue what's going on with me, but for the last few days, i really havent felt like myself.
yesterday i realized i've been taking painkillers regularly. it's probably been about 4 days straight. its typical for me to get headaches, i have a really sensitive olfactory that picks up even the slightest scent, then i'll be dizzy all day. but this is the longest ever for me, and with nonstop vertigo. i figure its from wearing my headset so often?
i can never tell when i'm overworking.
but thats just the physical stuff, which i can ignore usually. but lately i even feel like my head is dizzy...people always tell me i'm good at articulating myself, but i feel like i can't string a sentence together very easily these days. i figured all the brain fog was from me not eating well (i'm horrible about it when i'm obsessing about my work), but i have no appetite, even for my favorite foods when i'm like this.
i noticed when a friend asked me why i don't post pictures of my tacos anymore, and i realized i hadn't had them in a while, and they didnt sound appetizing lol...thats not normal for me. i'll be eating al pastor on my deathbed.
it sounds silly, but i'm so big about my routines that i guess i worry myself when i suddenly lose interest in them.
the reason i'm writing this is because today was the first day i felt like i physically and mentally couldnt do anything. like even force myself. and i'm freaked out ngl lol. i wish i could work without rest, needing to sleep is such a burden when you're this obsessed.
tbh i feel like most of the psychological stuff just stems from me feeling out of control about the physical stuff. everything i do is about controlling myself always LOL. it's torture.
maybe i'm saying too much. but i don't feel like myself. Episode 4 is a huge episode for me, and maybe it's stressing me out lol. but i can't do it like this.
i've always felt like a prisoner in my mind, but now my body's betraying me too lol. it's such a burden to need to rest.
so i'm gonna rest for now, and if i still have a dizzy head after that, i'll visit the doctor.
i love you! i'm working on taking care of me.
Comments
kana
Dear Kureha health is top priority we want you to be healthy please do take all the time you need we will wait for you , sleep , eats well, get better and drink lot of water 💕
Lotus Flower
Rest is really important and it’s really hard to get back on top once you’ve lost a lot of it. If your body is showing these signs then that means PAST time to take it seriously. Take all the time you need, we can wait.
