π€π€ It's been exactly 1 year since my life completely changed..
🕑 Added 2022-10-05 09:53:24 +0000 UTC
π€π€ It's been exactly 1 year since my life completely changed in the blink of an eye. This time last year, I had just started my page, I was battling covid, going to the ER, having a miscarriage, and found out my mother who had just been diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer aspirated and went into the hospital 6 hours away from me and we didn't think she was going to make it...somehow she pulled through enough to come out of her c0ma, get off of life support, come home and be placed on hospice. As soon as I was clear of covid and stopped bl33ding, I took that 6 hour drive alone and got there just in time to surprise my mother as she arrived at the house by ambulance. Thus began my 4 month hiatus from my day job. Nobody warned me of what it will be like taking care of my mother who was actively dying of cancer. Nobody warned me of how it would change the dynamics of my family and my father. Nobody told me.
I also had to keep my miscarriage from my family because telling them I was pregnant out of wedlock is shameful according to my family, but also telling them I had just lost it would have really been too much on top of what we were all going through with my mother. So, I dealt with it all the best I could... Unfortunately, on December 14th my mother passed away. I stayed with my dad for 6 more weeks and learned a lot of things about my mom that surprised me. We didn't have a good relationship, she had borderline personality disorder, and despite how she had treated me growing up, I stopped my life for her and I was there. Yet, I was still in shock by some of the things my dad had told me. He and I ended up learning how to have a healthy relationship with each other, and I visit him, 6 hours away, as often as I can.
These last few months have been very hard for me... SO MUCH has happened in just 12 months, it's hard to fathom sometimes. Between dealing with the emotions and still trying to be a functioning adult at work, (not to mention dealing with ADHD), it's definitely been challenging for me. My day job has kept me hella busy, and I'm currently trying to get a remote job because my 1 hour commute twice a day is really killing my bank account.
I am grateful for the people around me, and for the support you have given me throughout everything. I wanted to share this with you because I feel like you all already know me, and I wanted to give some clarity as to why I've been away. Please keep me in your prayers and continue to send me good thoughts, stupid jokes, cute things, and of course all the sexy pics. π€π€
