MY SUBMISSION
Generally I find it very hard to submit to s..
🕑 Added 2021-07-28 15:16:08 +0000 UTC
MY SUBMISSION
Generally I find it very hard to submit to someone. I need to have a strong emotional bond with them. I would dare to say that submitting to someone is a form of love.
As a sub, I am what you would call "a good girl". I am not difficult to control, and I don't really talk back or try to resist much. Maybe juuust a little to make it fun. When I am in a good mood I can be very playful, and a little annoying maybe haha. But just one warning from my Dom is enough to shut me up.
I love acts of servitude, big or small. Cleaning for my Dom is actually very enjoyable! Cleaning for myself.... not so much!! My number one goal as a sub is to make my Dom feel better, in any possible way. It doesn't matter if it is sexual or not, cleaning dishes or giving him a blowjob. Anything I can do that makes their life a little easier.
I like the fact that I take my submission so seriously, but also, sometimes, I hate it. I can't really have casual play partners like other polyamorous people. Due to past trauma and failed past relationships, it's hard to open up and trust others. It feels impossible to find a second partner to begin with. I would like to be able to play with others in a casual way but I just... can't. I find it hard to feel sexual attraction, without sharing a bond with them. I wish I weren't like that.
Is it demisexuality? Maybe. Do I like it? No.
