Hey everyone! If you’ll permit me a moment to go on a bit o..
🕑 Added 2023-04-25 17:12:35 +0000 UTC
Hey everyone! If you’ll permit me a moment to go on a bit of a rant. At the end I need some input.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately and I was becoming really concerned that I was just burnt out and may need to step away from this life. However, I came to a profound (for me) revelation.
What I am experiencing is a problem of scale.
When I first started there was a level of intimacy and vulnerability that I was able to feel between my self and my followers/fans. I was able to respond to DMs and comments quickly and focus on each interaction. About 10% of you DM me regularly. That number has stayed fairly consistent for the past few years and when I had 100 followers it was manageable. Now there are a couple thousand here and it’s near impossible to give each of you the attention I want to give you.
Then there’s the issue of content. Everything that I do here is my reality. Unfortunately because of regulatory constraints, changes to the club environment, and the demands of keeping up with a nearly weekly content schedule; I’ve been unable to make the the kinds of videos I used to. I haven’t been able to show off the chaotic energy leading up to my various encounters and I’ve had to plan visits with bulls further in advance and it’s lost some of the intensity that comes from just throwing myself out there and seeing what happens.
I got overwhelmed and just started going through the motions and lost the things that I enjoyed the most about doing this. The thing is that I desperately want that connection and intimacy and spontaneity back. Im going to be making some changes to reflect that so you will all have much more access to me than before. Im going to be making changes to the way I make content for you. I’m still working out exactly what I’m going to be doing but I’m hoping to have those updates for you soon. I have a few more videos lined up for you and then Im heading to Miami for the XBIZ conference and awards. I should have some great stuff from there to post and then we’ll get started on our new plan and hopefully a return to form.
What I need from you is suggestions for things you’d like to see from me to connect with and make myself more available to you. For example I’m thinking of using the live feature for a weekly live Q&A stream. Try to keep your suggestions limited to this platform as directing users to another site is a grey area when it comes to the TOS.
Finally, I just want to say thank you. Especially to all the followers that have been here for a long time. I apologize if I’ve seemed distant and cold lately, I’ve felt it about myself too and I can’t say how much I appreciate you sticking around for all this time.
P.S. to start I’m terrible about responding to comments so I’m going to let you all respond in the comments if you’d like and I’ll check back within 24 hours to answer all of them.
