Ya'll have got to understand that when you come to me with s..
🕑 Added 2024-01-02 01:05:43 +0000 UTC
Ya'll have got to understand that when you come to me with specific asks about kink and sexual stuff, I genuinely do not kmow what any of it is.
I do not fuck. I don't partake in kink. I'm Asexual I don't know anything about anything. I do photos and videos and that's about it. I know it's like, tame, and not impressive, but it's what I do and what I'm comfortable doing.
I recently started doing topless stuff and honest? I'm not.....entirely comfortable with my nipples being out either. I don't know anything about what people with sex drives get up to, and the best I can do is just sort of...estimate.
I feel bad that I don't provide more, but just the idea of sex and sex related things makes me uncomfortable. I like modeling. I like taking pictures. I like trying to be pretty, or feel pretty, or...something. I'm trying to chase some kind of feeling of being wanted, I guess, and this is the place I've decided to do it.
I also have a huge phobia of talking to people online, which I've been trying to use this platform to be better about.
I'm very thankful for the people that are here, but I don't really know how to communicate to people that, while what I do doesn't seem like much, it's all I'm capable of doing. I feel like if I say it out loud, people who are 'waiting for the pin to drop' get disappointed. Like there's some expectation that I need to 'put out' to be able to have a successful career or income on this website. I feel like saying out loud that I don't like sex, or kink, or even porn is considered a social taboo here.
But like...I don't. I don't like any of that stuff and I don't think I ever will.
But.
To those of you who like what I put out, and the photos and the videos that I do make, and who have stayed with me or are even sorta new, and who keep contributing to me, it means a lot to me.
I don't do much, but knowing that there's people out there who appreciate what I do make means the world to me.
I don't know what the new year will bring. Changes, certainly, but what those changes are elude me. I want to continue to make content that people like, and that convinces people that I'm worth something.
Thank you for 2023.
I look forward to being here in 2024. However I can. I hope that you like it.
