Omgggg I didn't realise the comparison till I saw the old cl..
🕑 Added 2021-12-28 16:07:02 +0000 UTC
Omgggg I didn't realise the comparison till I saw the old clip sorting thru content but this is two clips of my Mistress Clara Claus, but a
a year apart, 2020 and this year.
365 days of grueling rehab and recovery to put on 5lb and not constantly painfully sublux my hip... It's been a rough road with many backward slides so sometimes it's difficult so see overall progress...and I mean I know I still a long way to go (it'd be nice to be able to stand for more than half an hour a day)... but now I can actually manage to lift the leg on its own with more stability and that is a huge heckin win 💪🏻
I can also now do one squat 2x a week without my thigh bone popping painfully out of joint and jamming in place, pinching a few nerves for funsies in the process which classes a Russian roulette of agony thru my back and down my leg (what'll be today folks, toes in fire?, stabbed in the spine?) , like that is amother a huge win... And I need to hecking pat myself on the back for it bcs it's been fucking hell and I didn't think I was gonna make it more days than not.
It's literally taken me 3 yrs from not being in excruciating pain after standing for only 10 seconds and running out of my vestiges of muscle stre gth at 30 seconds. I went from bed bound and screaming in pain to even managing to move about my apartment carefully without my walker. Yes I still have sets backs that are heartbreakg... but the fact that I fought so hard for this. Thur crumbling self identity, relationships, and mental health I still kept fighting. I know I'll have more setbacks and I know I'm gonna want to give up, but I also know I fucking won't bcs I deserve better. Better care. Better support. Better pain management, better meds. And I won't stop fighting till I get them for myself and others in my community.
And as much as I have really been making myself to be kind and give credit to myself for where I've put work in, you guys are such a huge part of my healing journey bcs I would probably still be bedbound without the support here so thank you so so much for being apart of our community and helping me on this road 💕
Going to try to watch this video in my bad days to remind myself the tiny things really do add up to big changes over time (for good and for bad)
Also on a less depressy note I made a quick video to show one of my fav Xmas traditions, flamin pudding and custard! peep it in my twitter here: 💕
https://twitter.com/ClaraCosmia/status/1475603007907713026?t=eSIulwJb4--9vgyfzkXCqg&s=19
