I went somewhere new today. My physio convinced me to visit ..
🕑 Added 2023-05-11 13:40:12 +0000 UTC
I went somewhere new today. My physio convinced me to visit a centre for people with MS. She wanted me to use the gym there and speak to the physios. It was a big place, they served food, had the gym, plus yoga studio, library and much more and it was full of people with varying levels of MS.
The gym part was fine, I showed off my walking skills on the parallel bars, well, not on them, between them haha. And got on well with the staff. I even made a friend!
However, and it's a big however. It was so surreal being surrounded by people with MS. By people 30 years older who were still walking fine and so much better off than me. And people worse than me, people who reflect my future. I hated it so so so much. It was just horrible seeing all these people, at least 50, all with MS, all suffering. I don't know if I could go back, I get that it might help me physically and that I might find people who can help me mentally, but I don't know if I could ever make myself return. It's hard to explain, am I crazy?
