LIFE UPDATE
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I really need to go shopp..
🕑 Added 2024-04-15 19:48:37 +0000 UTC
LIFE UPDATE
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I really need to go shopping for some feminin running clothes because this just isn't acceptable anymore haha!!
Today I went to the psychologist and then to 2pass clinic to get fillers. (I know it looks like I do that a lot, but I do fillers in very small pieces so that i'm 100% sure i like it haha).
I got kinda emotional at the psychologist.
I care a lot for the people around me and I have some sense of guilt for transitioning. Everyone is supportive but I kinda feel like a failed brother or a failed man sometimes, the guilt is abit anoying. But I also told my psychologist that I also am very happy and I really enjoy to be feminin. It's just some illogical feelings that i need to swallow. She also said that I most likely experience an emotional transition. I know I shouldn't feel guilty, but I feel it sometimes anyway. But it will pass. I also had an interesting talk with my mother. She asked me if I wanted to get bottom surgery too and I said no. She then asked herself if she did anything wrong to me in the past. She started to look for things she could have done wrong as a mother for me to end up this way. ''Perhaps it was my mistake to send you to a school with only boys, maybe thats why you transition now''. Things like that.
I once mentioned to her that I think going to an all boys school makes it difficult to socialize around girls and that I don't think its a good idea for my brothers but it had nothing to do with my transition. She was looking for an explenation. Although she ment wel, she made it seems like I was sick haha. I don't blame her. She has a very big heart and is very supportive. I made sure to tell her she did nothing wrong and that I love her very very much.
My desire for sex and my libido now deffinatly decreased.
But my desire to be a sissy did not decrease. I really still enjoy it. Perhaps even more than before. It is just different now. A lot changes on HRT. I don't even know where to start.
Then I went to the 2pass clinic in belgium to get fillers. Because of the weightloss my face starts to look too skeleton like. I'm happy with the results.
After that I went to the sissy market and helped Princess diamonds with the orders of the day. Then I had to drive home and now i'm in front of my computer and thats my day!
Mwah
xxx
