6am gang, where you at? π΄π€ππ₯΅
Part of loves being up at this ..
🕑 Added 2023-08-14 05:34:22 +0000 UTC
6am gang, where you at? π΄π€ππ₯΅
Part of loves being up at this time, part of me hates it. Knowing I have leg day on 5 hours sleep - crushing.
However, I can get lots done before some make it out of bed, this is a luxury for me that know me - I never surface before 9am. For some, that is a luxury to them, and I should be thankful for it. I am. Believe me.
Iβm at a loss again, I want to do so much with my life right now that, Iβm getting nothing done.
I need to take my own advice and do the βone thingβ rule - I have talked so much about that here over the years.
I realising that Iβm putting way too much pressure on myself to be successful - worrying about the next thing.
Maybe I should run away to Portugal again?
Seek refuge, cry to my mom, and come back to Belfast recharged.
Itβs my safe place on this globe - that garden.
I feel like I need to make a decision on what direction my life needs to go, I was going to retire completely next yearβ¦ but, I have decided against it completely- I love my life too much. I love my people too much, and you know who you are. I have such amazing relationships with people I have known for years. I was going to give it up for βloveβ. I realise now, that I do not have to change for anyone, I do not have to stop what I do because it makes me unworthy, and unlovable.
This. Is. Not. The. Case.
Itβs taken me so long to realise this and so many of you have said, βSarah, you donβt have to change for someone to love you - they should love you for you.β Bingo. You said it. You all said it.
So thank you, thank you to every single person who messaged, who was my hype man, my rock, sent me money, advice and reassurance. Turns out I got more than one boyfriend here - my people are legends - leagues apart others.
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