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🕑 Added 2024-03-21 18:30:46 +0000 UTC I havent written a "book" here on onlyfans in a long time. So heres how im doing lately 🌷 Its nearing spring! So ive been spending A LOT of time outside every day. Which isnt entirely my idea, small human begs us to go outside and brings us our hoodies and his jacket so we can go "oouuu" (he cant pronounce the T yet). Even if its cold he loves it. Points out the trees, as soon as he hears a bird he says bird. Im more in love with him every single day. Watching his brain work and him become more of a little person every day is amazing to watch. He is only 15 months and he is sooooo smart. He knows so many words and animal noises and how to do things... he never ceases to amaze me. Even when hes a screaming mess throwing himself on the floor cuz i didnt understand what he was saying and his teeth hurt. My whole entire life, every waking second, revolves around this little life. I truly thought parenting would get "smoother" not easier, but just be better managed? But i feel like its just different. Not easier. Not better managed. Im still drowning honestly 😅 i havent been able to catch my breath but for a second. The best i felt was when i came back to streaming the first time, when he had a sitter every friday and 2 naps a day! One nap was for me time, one was for work, and fridays were for stream! Now he has one nap, and usually doesnt sleep well at night. Me and Light are finally doing better, but because we usually spend small humans nap doing chores around the house together or eating lunch together. Its the only time we spend together all day. Im honestly just at a loss of when im supposed to do anything. I can barley keep a clean house anymore, i have 0 time for myself, and only fridays for work. So where do i fit in time for messages? Or time to film content? Or fuck, even time for my own friends... or just the little bit of downtime for myself so i can breath and have the energy to do all those other tasks after having a toddler attatched to me all day? I dont have an answer for that. And im losing it quite honestly. I can not keep going on like this. Im 100% either going to have to stop onlyfans, leave my page up as a cheap place to get all my videos but no messages or offline work just use it as an archive. Or im going to have to hire a sitter or someone to at least watch small human once a week. Cuz i cant do all of this. I cant keep up my house, my mental health, my small human, and still work. Being a parent requires full attention and i just cant give that if i need to work. And dk is planning on switching back to night shifts after summer, which means i loose my friday sitter there too. Ya girl is just at a loss. Like i have been pretty much the past 2 years. Im not depressed. I feel okay. I find joy in things. I just suck ass at this juggling stuff. Im doing my best. I respond to messages every single day but it doesnt make any kind of dent in them EVER. I still make new content of some kind, a picture set or film something at least ONCE A WEEK. and it doesnt make a dent in orders i have 😭 im just overwhelmed i suppose with thigns to do. I wish i could add hours to the day. To give all of you the amount of me id like. While also giving all of me to my small human while he needs me. I will figure it out ❤️ as i always attempt to! But in the meantime, just know this is where im at. Where my heads at. Where my hearts at. Im here. And always thinking of you all, just without the proper amount of time to show it. Signed with all the live in the universe, Day (As she writes this in her once a week hair washing shower 🤣 cuz thats the only time she gets to herself
