Guys guys guys Ontario’s lockdown is going to be extended an..
🕑 Added 2021-05-11 21:27:09 +0000 UTC
Guys guys guys Ontario’s lockdown is going to be extended and I just don’t know what to do :(
I’m going to be taking it slow for the next month so if you unsubscribe i understand but I’m running out of energy to do this
Usually I can go and get my hair done, nails done, massages
So many things to help me de stress and feel more beautiful
Even going to cities and meeting people isn’t possible right now
I don’t feel alive, or like a normal human right now. And I think the part of me that wants to make people feel happy and loved, is really empty right now. I think I’ve been focusing so much of my time and energy trying to motivate the people around me to stay strong and motivated, but I haven’t been doing it with myself as much
I feel ugly, my face is hairy (I also get that waxed haha) my nails are gross and have old polish on them and I also feel alone and like I’m going to be stuck like this forever
Even though I know lockdowns will end eventually, I’m on of the last people who will be able to get the vaccine in Ontario, and even if I had it, the entire province is still shut down
You can do some research about the way Ontario is handling covid, they’re doing an awful job of it and a lot of people are struggling right now
I know I’ve gained some supporters from Ontario so if you’re feeling down and like this won’t be an encouraging place for you to sub to, i completely understand if you need to leave
I’m trying to not share as much of my negative feeling online anymore, because I know it can encourage people to feel sad instead of happy, which makes me feel worse, but I wanted to be open and honest because I’ve gotten some messages from people wondering why I’m not posting as much
I’m sure there’s more than one reason but yeah the lockdown and it constantly being extended is definitely the main reason I’m so tired and frustrated right now
I feel the need to do so much but I also feel like I can’t, and no one can make me feel better but me
No one can give me motivation so if I want that house I keep talking about I need to keep “working” but I also know I need to do it at a slower pace right now
Thanks for understanding fam and I’m sorry I’m not a big strong ass giraffe right now 🦒
Covid sucks, I don’t wanna talk about how much it sucks but I wanted to say this so thanks for listening
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