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Lying in bed doing “Market Research.” 😝 You all don’t know..
🕑 Added 2023-08-15 21:57:14 +0000 UTC Lying in bed doing “Market Research.” 😝 You all don’t know the long journey it’s been for me to see myself as sexually desirable. I’m grateful for what I’ve learned about myself along the way in my porn adventure: that I am lovable and deserving of love. Despite all of the sexy images I’ve had plastered online for the better half of a decade, it really is only, truly, the past couple of years that I’ve learned to see myself as sexy; and only the past few months that I can actually find myself attractive (e.g. get aroused watching a video of myself with someone). It’s crazy how deeply rooted shame can disrupt your ability to love yourself and love life fully. So, ignoring the messy bedroom (side note - I’d love to hire someone in Vegas to clean my house on the regular. DM me for details)…yes, ignoring the messy bedroom, this picture is evidence of me getting off to me and @cas3ycruz! And, I have notes 🧐. 😆 Truth be told, I don’t watch a lot of the porn I make <>. But, I’m embracing that I - ME! - can actually make the porn that I want to see. It’s such an obvious truth, I guess the real surprise is that it took me this long to get there. I’ll do better about bringing you along for the ride. I’m excited. 🎉 🎉 🎉 For now, know that there will be a lot more short clips (The Onlyfans interface really sucks for scrubbing through longer videos, especially with lube-y hands on the phone 😡); more stationary cam; more COLOR; and big o’l dicks and hairy holes. I have a lot of content on backlog, and the weekly postings will still come out. But I think the newer stuff is going to drop frequently during the week. Keep me accountable 🫡 - editing is such a chore for me right now - but I think that’s because I’m not really filming for me. Once I start filming for me, I’ll be editing for me, and then posting for us! Feel free to ask me questions. I’d love to know what you think and would want to know about this journey I’m on!
