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I'm really sorry I haven't posted, sometimes I feel like som..
🕑 Added 2024-11-12 21:57:36 +0000 UTCI'm really sorry I haven't posted, sometimes I feel like some people don't understand that I am a person too who struggles. So many things have been weighing on me these past few months. Other than mental health one of the main things is that I do not have my own space to do the photos I want to do, most the time I'll rent an air bnb or hotel but that adds up. I haven't wanted to post because I haven't sent out the rebill and if I post and not send the rebill then it's a problem so then I'm stuck in this cycle in my head where I shouldn't post because I haven't done the rebill. That was even just annoying to type. Then it comes down to outfits ect which adds up as well. I have no idea what to wear, I'd love to do cosplay but that gets expensive. I want to do twitch but I have to buy a set up. I have a set up in mind but I'm thinking about getting it for cyber Monday so it's cheaper. Dealing with diagnosed PCOS and depression/anxiety messes with me alot too and I know some here can relate to the depression and anxiety part. It's also been incredibly overwhelming because I have people who I personally don't talk to anymore stalki.ng me which is the main reason I stopped posting to tiktok. I find myself not wanting to post on there cause it's crazy behavior that this person after 2 years will not move on and leave me tf alone and focus on their own life, so I don't want them to see what I'm doing so I declined in posting. They even have gone as far as to have soneone out in Texas pay for my OF and have them send my content to them, which is seriously weird behavior coming from a female. Then there's me still trying to process the passing of my mum, growing up I never experienced the loss of close family members, the first time being in 2018. I still don't know how to grieve properly and it's either I wild n out or I Isolate. I'm still figuring it out. I'd like yo get a hotel this week and just spend the entire day shooting content and getting back on track. This year has not been the greatest, last year I was doing so good and very consistent for a whole year with no interruption. This year not so much and that makes me feel worse. I really want to schedule another shoot with taco but again that adds up. I'm hoping soon for that too. Give me a couple more days and I will have the rebill done, back to posting and answeringmessages, after I will start finalizing the fundraiser.
