i was writing the caption for tonight's update, and i realiz..
🕑 Added 2022-08-08 07:28:39 +0000 UTC
i was writing the caption for tonight's update, and i realized it's probably better to take what i was writing and make it it's own post rather than post it as a caption and taint (ha taint) the photos with emotion/explanation.
almost two months ago i started to recognize the signs of depression starting to reemerge. i have had a lot of success in managing those feelings, rather lack of feelings, for a few years and the thought of falling back into that state caused me to make the decision to start seeing a professional about it.
which, personally, i believe may have been an overcorrection. i was put on medication that did not give me the same experience as many of the success stories i had read about. i was not motivated to create, and i didn't even care enough to 'fake it'. i'm thankful for muscle memory because that's the only way i was able to function while on this medication.
i'm can gladly say that i am off that (and all other) medication, i am now talking to a therapist rather than a psychiatrist, and after only 2.5 weeks i am already feeling so much better than i have in months.
i say that, to really say this... no doubt you guys are tired of the countless reasons i have, and apologies ive given, so instead i just want to say thank you. i am working through shit, but even with that i enjoy what you guys allow me to do, and i truly enjoy making content for you. i have so much fun picking out costumes, playing with wigs, experimenting with lights, and more than anything i enjoy playing with my big huge boobs haha. (i say haha but it's truly not a joke. i do really love it.)
and since i am not technically apologizing, all i can do is change my behavior and hope you guys stick around to notice difference.
anyway, like i said in the beginning, i am posting photos directly after this post goes up.. i just didn't want to muddy my mental health update with titty talk, and i didn't want to ruin my tits with sincerity and blah blag,- you guys get it.
as always, you fucking rock.
i love you all
-T
