I've been going through a bit of writer's block recently and..
🕑 Added 2020-03-01 18:49:12 +0000 UTC
I've been going through a bit of writer's block recently and can't form thoughts around anything in particular for Sapio Sunday.
With that being said I'm just going to journal a bit. Today I'm going shopping for my "boss/tutor/office" outfit for the GG shoot. I'm excited, I think I'm going to get some new heels while I'm out. I like the look of a woman in a suit, so hopefully I'll find a nice fitting one!
I also want to acknowledge that I'm starting to come out of my emotional block. I've been suppressing painful feelings, such as anger, which has caused me to dissociate over time. With counseling I'm exploring these feelings and starting to let them out, and as I've been doing so I'm beginning to feel clear again. As if I'm finally waking up, and can see the beauty around me. While I was in survival mode I actually made a lot of progress in life. My house is coming together, my birds have a fully enriched aviary, I'm starting to accrue more advanced film equipment, and in general I'm structured a lot better now than I was before.
This summer I'm going to be working for XBIZ Miami! I'm thinking about that more and more because it's one of the only conventions that's industry-only. Models can attend, mingle, make connections, and relax. We don't have to put on a performance and can just be ourselves. It's easily been my favorite convention, so I'm pretty stoked to be going back!
Mike has gotten an anal fissure so him bottoming has come to a screeching halt. I look forward to the days where I'll be able to p e g him, until then we're going to shift our focus around a little. We're in the process of getting an onlyfans set up for him. He has an entirely different artistic vision, which we've never really explored. In addition he's planning on only using his Black Magic cinema camera for videos! I can't wait to see what he makes, and what we make together.
I'm off of here for now. π Have a stellar Sunday, folks, and I'll see you tomorrow!
