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🕑 Added 2024-02-16 11:10:58 +0000 UTC hi happy friday! let's talk! 💗sorry for what is probably going to be me yapping for however long, but i have a couple things i wanna share with you guys.
over the past year or so, i've been feeling like i strayed further and further from the content i really enjoyed making. i felt directionless, unfulfilled, distracted, depressed, etc. it was an interesting year long story short, i'll spare you the details. i wasn't really feeling very passionate about anything to be 100% honest. i felt stumped with streaming and onlyfans, as i'm sure it's been evident for quite some time now. when i feel overwhelmed, i tend to back away from things and situations instead of dealing with them head on.
i know this was probably the last thing you'd expect to be reading on onlyfans, but i always want to be transparent and honest about my thoughts and feelings, especially when it comes to such a big part of my life.
as i've gotten older, i feel like i'm changing entirely as a person- and very rapidly. but i like the new self i'm becoming. i say all this to say, i don't quite enjoy some of the things i used to. i'm maturing and evolving and i feel like i began to resonate less and less with onlyfans, or at least some of the content i was beginning to make. and as goofy as this might sound, my aesthetic and things i align with are changing too.
unfortunately, although the money is nice, i have morals and have always felt conflicted on some of the things i've shared and posted on here over the past few years. i constantly feel so much pressure to put out something new and impressive to cater to you all. by all means, in no way am i trying to say your requests have made me feel this way or whatever you might make of that statement. i just feel like there are still some things i want to keep private, keep to myself, and share with someone i love.
i can confidently say that you'll probably never see a sex tape from me?? i know a lot of you request it and over the last few years, i've asked my past boyfriends if they'd ever be comfortable with it and they all have said no. i'm learning i'm okay with keeping some of these things to myself.
i say all this to say, i just wanna have fun posting on here again and enjoying it. i've always loved onlyfans and you're all always so kind to me and so understanding and i appreciate your patience with me above all, i really can't thank you enough for your support over the years 😭🫶🏼
i'll still be doing ppv and whatever else i feel like, but please don't expect full on porn from me. that's never what i wanted this to be, especially as i begin to explore other avenues of content creation and doing more of what i love.
i just wanna have fun again ultimately. that starts now, so i hope you enjoy these goofy selfies of me holding some dildos 🤪
if you read this, thank you and much love. thank you for your support 🫶🏼
here's to a new beginning!
