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I've been really unmotiva..
🕑 Added 2020-12-08 13:30:03 +0000 UTC
⛔⚠️WARNING BONER KILLER POST!⚠️ ⛔
I've been really unmotivated lately and just all around drained from everything. I'm sorry for not posting as much or as regularly lately as I feel I should. The holidays are always a rough time for me. I don't do onlyfans for the money. I do it to make people happy and allow them to forget about their issues and play with their cock or ass for a bit and not worry about how shiity their life is, how crappy their job is, or how unsupportive their family can be.
After having this same conversations with a very dear friend, I probably do it for all those same reasons as well.
I've recently quit smoking cigarettes and while that is a plus it's also a huge stressor, but it was overdue and needed to happen. Also this week is finals week for me and while I know ya'll don't know this, this semester has been one of the worst for me ever. I cannot wait for it to be over. Also with my doctors help we've been adjusting my medications for depression and anxiety because lately dealing my mental health has been a real struggle.
**Also quick PSA... If you struggle with your mental health seek out help. Talk to a professional or your doctor. I went almost 35 years where I thought it was a placebo effect and fooled myself into thinking I was fine when in actuality, I was not even close! My highs were so high! When I was up, I was so happy and fun to be around, but when i was low I struggled to hold a job and have a social life, because I couldn't fathom the simplest task of getting out of bed, eat, or talk to anyone for fear of having a nervous breakdown. **
I've also started dating someone. We've been talking for a couple years... More seriously this past year, and while he doesn't live here in Iowa, he's been up here a couple times this year and I will finally get to spend a week with him again next week for a week and tbh I can't wait. I haven't seen him since the middle of August. You've probably seen him in some videos before onlyfans pulled them awhile back. I don't have a model release form for him and he doesn't have an account on here for tagging. While he doesn't care that I share some clips of him on here or Twitter, I will never ask him to film content for my page. I know that is not something he has interest in doing and I enjoy the time we spend together alone and like to keep some of him to myself privately anyway.
I'll probably take some time off from here for the next couple weeks to regroup and enjoy life. I hope you all respect that and I'll be back around the new year and hopefully have some renewed vigor to put into creating content. I love you guys and I hope you all have a wonderful holiday and new year and I'll be around if anyone wants to shoot me a message, but please respect my wish to step back a bit and do some self help/care.
Nic ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
