PirateGray
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🕑 Added 2024-02-26 20:14:10 +0000 UTC
This month has been the worst I’ve seen Macs health. Just in the last 10 days he’s collapsed twice, had another believed seizure, and is he’s breathing hard with every movement he makes. I’ve been carrying him when I can help take the stress off his heart when coming in from outside. Tomorrow grandma (my moms) coming to see him and we’re going to take him to get X-rays (rather than go to a specialist for triple the cost and has a long wait list), to confirm our belief of congestive heart failure.
This has been the most painful month so far. I don’t want my sweet man struggling. Yesterday morning he collapsed, but recovered, was okay, played with Finn (took the videos yesterday) and he was his sassy self, and then he had a seizure late last night. I have videos but I’ll spare the triggering footage. It’s just so awful to see him struggle to do simple tasks, like getting up 3 steps from outside, or just the exhaustion he has from getting onto the bed with our little steps for him.
I know my time with him is coming to an end. I want to take him to the beach one more time, but I don’t even know if his heart would handle the walk there. It aches just knowing I have to say goodbye soon. I’m not sure if that’s in a few days, weeks or months, but I know his heart and body aren’t able to keep up any more 😔 my heart is fucking aching.
