PirateGray
fansly
🕑 Added 2024-03-16 14:08:58 +0000 UTC
Mac’s ashes are home 😔❤️🩹 I’ve been trying to get myself to a point where I can donate his meds and things Finn can’t use to the shelter here, and I know I’ll fight every urge to adopt when I visit there. I just know I’m not ready, Mac is a huge part of my heart and it’s too broken to open it up for another sweet soul. Plus Finn is taking all of my attention for now. Hoping to get a couple of items made with Mac’s ashes so I can carry him with me on every walk, every adventure I go on. The necklace in the second picture I got for loved ones who may want it.
Grief has taken the best of me this month, trying to get through the emotions, past the numbness and sobbing randomly throughout the day. I’ll be ok. Losing your best friend of 13 years, your child, and love, it’s hard. I wish no one ever had to feel this way.
Content here will be updates periodically for now. Once my body and mind sync up and feel ok, I’ll think about more content here. But for now my focus is: get through each day, finish this inventory job for good, and potentially apply for a local job working with animals.
I got tons of cute pics of Finn and one of my favorite places (the beach) to share here too, it may be a good bit of that for now. I haven’t been getting ready each day, only once in the last month have I put on makeup and felt “presentable”.
Also thank you for those who take the time to read posts and updates. I feel like there’s a lot of people here for *specific* content, but y'all know that’s not my thing so thank you for being here and caring to hear updates.
