Hello, my loves! First off, I wanted to let y’all know that ..
🕑 Added 2023-08-08 23:12:31 +0000 UTC
Hello, my loves! First off, I wanted to let y’all know that Aiden is doing much better so we should be able to start filming together again very soon! I also wanted to get you up to date on my health so you understood what we were dealing with over here at the moment and why content has been extra scarce. I mentioned in a post the other week that I was diagnosed with long-term Lyme disease. It’s something that’s gone undiagnosed since I was 6 or 7 and I’ve been dealing with a myriad of symptoms since then. It is the entire reason we have had so many health related pauses with content production. Over the last few years things have gotten worse and due to extreme stress recently my symptoms have skyrocketed.
If you’re not familiar with Lyme disease here’s some of the many symptoms it causes that have been keeping me from working recently:
Lyme Carditis - The bacteria enters the heart where it disrupts electrical signals causing fibrillation, lightheadedness, fainting, shortness of breast, and chest pain. Though rare, it can be fatal.
It invades and weakens all of your soft tissue and makes it so your body is unable to properly produce collagen. This causes full body muscle, joint, and tendon pain, inflammation, and weakness. This is why I’m constantly injuring myself doing the most mundane things like how I dislocated a rib a few weeks ago while working out a knot in my chest. It’s also why my lower back injury hasn’t been able to heal properly.
Interstitial Cystitis, painful intercourse
Migraines
Insomnia
Fatigue
Anxiety/panic attacks, depression, OCD, paranoia, mood swings, general confusion, memory loss, exacerbation of ADHD symptoms
The list goes on…
Some days are better than others but I’m very much in limbo at the moment since I’m still waiting to get an appointment with an infectious disease specialist in order to start treatment. It’s insanely frustrating because they can’t even tell me when I’ll hear back about getting an appointment and I have no clue how far out that appointment will be once they finally call me back.
I’m doing everything I can to get back to a relatively stable point so I can work again but I can only do so much on my own without actual proper treatment. All I can do right now is rest as much as possible and do my best to keep stress levels to a minimum. I desperately want to distract myself with work but it’s been impossible and it sucks on so many levels. I’m hoping to be able to get some film time in on one of my good days soon now that my rib is feeling better and Aiden is good to go. I’m really looking forward to that!
We love this work and we will continue to create for as long as we can but for that to happen I need to prioritize my health for a little bit longer. Your continued patience and support is what we need in order to do that, so thank you so much for being here for us. I love y’all.
