Spending time quietly without feeling the need to engage reg..
🕑 Added 2021-03-11 02:12:47 +0000 UTC
Spending time quietly without feeling the need to engage regularly has set me up for re-centering, and being in a better space mentally. I never really know how I will wake up, one day, all feels bright, and although I know that the world, and my existence in it is far from perfect, I can find joy in small things, and have just a bit of hope and happiness. Other days, it can all feel so overwhelming and I feel like my hard drive is crashing.
Being a creator is really tough, and when it switches from doing it because you enjoy it, to an actual job, the pressure to produce is almost insufferable, and I have to remind myself regularly that I am allowed to rest, and ghost the internet if I feel like I’m running in circles.
Onlyfans has been great, its been one of my dreams to make money off of just being myself for the most part, but outside of sex work I find myself seeking to share more of my deeper more meaningful works here. Of course y’all will still see my butt and any other XXX content, but its truthfully not enough, and I know a lot of you enjoy it but it can be quite boring and mind numbing to be “sexy” all the time.
I recognize that my best work is my deepest work & interests and sharing all of it in its pureness here with you when I am ready is the beauty of being a creator. An authentic and genuine one at that. Although I think sex work is a great way to sublimate income, I truly don’t wish to be something consistently consumed in such a draining way, or have to put on a happy face always. The beauty in this platform, and one of the reasons I created it outside of needing to feed myself, was so that I could create alongside my sex work without the fear of being deleted, or reprimanded. I crave a safe space to feel unbridled joy, love, and all the things I sometimes think the rest of my being a sexworker is missing, or that folks don’t think you can be because of the line of work. The rawness and authenticity and bridging the gaps that comes with owning my own person, and having full autonomy. Thank y’all so much for being here with me, and I hope you enjoy this clip of a recent bath ritual.
I spend so much time doting on myself and creating moments where I can release anything I’ve been holding onto. Burning sage, taking a magnesium bubble bath with epson salt and oils, really feels like a deep cleansing and Re entering. I hope y’all enjoy these very intimate moments of my time.
Warmest, Nay
