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Todays Meditation : Finding ways to divest as a daily pract..
🕑 Added 2021-05-26 12:15:05 +0000 UTC Todays Meditation : Finding ways to divest as a daily practice. some of the ways this work may be internalized is the ideology of perfection, which often leads to a warped sense of body image and self. Before this, a lot of my work was rooted in the nude body as a form of respite, engagement, and self actualization. Black folks do not often have bodily autonomy, particularly black femmes and trans folks, and to just show up where I am, however is a form of divestment in the structures that teach me daily that I must primp, prime, and fix myself to be worthy. The practice of a daily mediation that is rooted in affirming yourself, I think can attract those who also affirm you and see you as beautiful and worthy, regardless of the general status quo. I am often recreating myself because there are many times my life has changed, and I am challenged to reckon with what I thought I knew. I rest often, but I also read and spend time in deep reflection and contemplation. It gives me a space to work out my feelings about what I do as. job, and who I actually am as a person. Learning that meditation is not just a practice to sit and escape how life makes me feel or what it puts me through, but to come out and actively and fully engage with it, is frightening. I love escapism, it can be easier to deal with then the reality of a sometimes overwhelming day to day, and I have to be careful that Im not using my lifes tool as an escapists coping mechanism to the things and feelings I need to address in my day to day. I am taking my time more often, because going out in to the world can harden you, and facing the realities that everything is not always going to be easy to deal with, can be debilitating, if I am caught up in my own cycle of pain, worry, and fear. The focus these past couple of mediations, have been on release and surrender, so that I may fully heal from injuries stored in my body. That is not as easy as it sounds, and can feel like a rat race, but the concept of release sometimes escapes of for fear of letting go of the things we think we need. I am taking my time to unlearn, Re-making my own rules, and leading a more inter grated life, that can move in and out of what ever and who ever I have to be to get by, with who I am and what I wish for myself long term, has been what I am putting out into the world for myself, and what I am putting into practice daily.
