***Happy Update:*** Super sorry for the quiet day, friends. ..
🕑 Added 2023-11-29 03:46:13 +0000 UTC
***Happy Update:*** Super sorry for the quiet day, friends. Today was a bit of a milestone in life for me! If you're interested in my personal life shenanigans, details are below ðĨ° If not, no worries - I'm simultaneously uploading a very sexy lil snippet for you!
Today I wrapped up 10 years of higher education and presented my dissertation. I haven't posted about it much over this past year, because it's been a bit of a blur and in all honestly I regret my choice to pursue this last degree.... but for the past year I was working towards a PhD. It's not quite as exciting as my first doctorate and I fucking HATE research but it was a necessary step for me. I genuinely do plan on getting a LOT fatter and fully realize that someday I'll need to transition to career that allows me to be more sedentary, so the PhD was needed for that natural progression from clinical care to academia.
Tonight it all came to an end. For my entire adult life, I've never not been in school. It's a really surreal feeling for me to actually be DONE. I've never known an adult life without writing papers at all hours of the night after work, working multiple jobs to make tuition payments, and missing out on events with friends/family because the workload was so insane and hard to balance with all my jobs. This is all stuff I never really talked about much here because here has always been my sweetest escape from it all. My happiest lil place during the midst of some really hard times. I don't even know what to do with myself. I don't know how to celebrate. 10 years is a long time to be that stressed. I am excited to get to know myself for the first time in my life without the constraints of being a student.
Thank you guys for waddling beside me all these years. One of the first things I did in college was start my youtube channel right from my freshman year dorm room in 2013, then once I got my first apartment in 2015/2016 I ended up on Stuffer31, then I would come and go, enter my short lived Big Cutie era during my Master's program, and then the Casey feedee dynasty really began in 2019 when I was getting my doctorate. I genuinely thought I was done with school after that, but then I realized I needed a plan B if I wanted to get as big as I've always dreamed of - so enter the PhD era that has been this past year of my life. I've gained just about 200lbs throughout this journey and it's been a wild ride. Very thankful for you all - you've played a big role in helping me learn to love myself, the most real version of myself, and helped me to live comfortably while managing a raging food addiction on top of tuition payments. My gratitude is so immense it's impossible to find the words.
Anyways, I'm taking the night to really soak this feeling in. The rest can wait till tomorrow. Sorry for anyone waiting on a reply from me - this is a once in a lifetime feeling and I want to enjoy every bit of it. All my love!! ððð
