Hey guys! I just wanted to touch base with you and give you ..
🕑 Added 2024-01-25 22:34:08 +0000 UTC
Hey guys! I just wanted to touch base with you and give you a small glimpse into my personal life. Lately I’ve been struggling and this is my strongest foundation to lean on, so I’m going to open up to you a little bit.
As everyone knows I try to keep things 100% positive here. This is supposed to be a happy place and I hope I’ve been able to provide that. That being said, it’s also a very personal space and with that comes some ups and downs. I’ve had a lot of downs in the last few weeks.
On New Year’s Eve my dad suffered a stroke. By some grace of God he’s doing alright. He got the care he needed very quickly and aside from some memory issues he has been recovering very quickly, and I couldn’t be more thankful for that.
That same week my grandmother went into hospice. She’s such a strong woman, and she hasn’t given up yet, but my heart is shattered because she was a huge part of my life growing up and helped make me who I am today.
On top of that, I found out last week that my dog has terminal cancer. It’s my boy… I got him as a puppy and the thought of losing him is ripping me apart. I don’t know what else to say, I can’t even talk about it.
My birthday is this weekend and unfortunately I’m so stressed out that I don’t plan on celebrating it. I hate the fact that it makes me feel old and I want to pretend it isn’t even happening.
All of this stuff has piled up on me and I’m at my breaking point. I’ve had my foot on the gas without considering the brakes for too long now and it has me completely burned out and makes it very difficult to make content. I feel awful about myself.
I’ve decided I have to force myself to take some time to focus on my mental and physical health. Over the next couple weeks I won’t be posting as much on my socials or checking them as much but I will be actively keeping up on my inbox on here. I just need to find a routine and some peace in life so I can get back to feeling like myself. Again don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere, I just need a couple weeks to cruise with my foot off the gas so I can feel like a human again.
I’m sorry for dumping this all on you, but hopefully you can appreciate me being real with you because at the end of the day that’s what it’s all about. I appreciate your love and patience, you guys are amazing ♥️
