**Thoughts on my First Ever Live & Being Impersonated for th..
🕑 Added 2023-02-12 16:06:54 +0000 UTC
**Thoughts on my First Ever Live & Being Impersonated for the First Time**
I'm slowly coming down from the amazing buzz from last lights live.
It was so nice to show that side of me, I was obviously so nervous, but I eased up and had the best time ever, seriously. thank you to everyone who joined and everyone i got to speak too! It was just SO much fun, and it was so nice to finally be accepted. That is a gift that doesn't have a price, and I can't thank you enough for giving it to me❤️
Now, heres for the sad part, I was in a super buzzing mood, I felt so happy after the live, and I woke up to an account that was impersonating me. (GOD BLESS those people who let me know when that happens). I have seriously debilitating anxiety around being impersonated, its been done to me before in my SFW life. ( a really close friend of mine was using my pictures of Tinder) So, I get so unbelievably panicked at the thought of it, it's even more distressing when its my vulnerable slutty self, that someone is impersonating. I feel so defeated, I know that it is part of the OF game, and that its bound to happen. The idea of someone profiting off me just seems so unjust, am I wrong to say that? I know that lots of people would reply, ' well you put your nudes online what do you expect?' and honestly, I agree. However the content was directly taken from here, which makes it even more heartbreaking. Someone I probably spoke to, was vulnerable with, or asked about their day, etc. Am I silly for seeing it as a betrayal of some sorts? I worry that I am too soft sometimes. I think what scares me inevitably is the background I come from, perhaps because the element of REAL danger is what panics me the most. It often feels like my life is on the line when someone impersonates me. It just hits differently when you're going against an entire culture/religion/practices. It's not funny, and it causes me immense panic and danger. However I should try and see the bright side, women and men all around the world are experiencing battles, hunger, poverty and threat to lives. When I think of that, I see my problems in proportion, if there was an imminent threat, yeah it might destroy me mentally, but i'll be safe living in the western world. Even writing all of this down has made me feel better, i'm just grateful. I feel so loved, thank you forever <3
