Is this a result of conditioning? A hidden trigger? Or a sid..
🕑 Added 2021-12-15 19:17:11 +0000 UTC
Is this a result of conditioning? A hidden trigger? Or a side effect of orgasm denial?
The other week, when doing my daily
morning kneel for Master, i got lost in my thoughts of fantasizing about Him and without realising I was doing it, I found myself rubbing my needy pussy on the heel of my foot! It felt so good and so I continued for a little longer.. it wasnt as pleasurable as using a toy or my hands but it was better than nothing and it was so much better than humping the air or even a pillow, which Master says I'm allowed to do... ooh that sounds like I'm ungrateful, I better be careful π I really am grateful for being allowed to hump the air and pillows..its just that the heel of my foot gives me a little more π€ ok, I'm greedy..but can you blame me??
I must admit, after I stopped myself from humping my foot, some shame and a little embarrassment did creep up on me ..but..the shame and embarrassment also kinda made me even more horny... I dont think I'll ever understand why that is, it seems like a new-ish kink for me..I say "new-ish" because I began to notice that i seem to get off on a bit of humiliation last year sometime ..but as time seems to go by, it seems to be growing stronger. Is this something that's developed naturally from being so horny all the time and so this is a side effect of that?
Or.. Have I been intentionally conditioned into feeling this way? Has the many sessions with Master, where I lose my inhibitions and even my dignity, is now lingering and effecting me permanently, even when I'm not triggered or tranced?
Has the daily mantras, triggers, orgasm denial, being in the slave mindset for long periods of time etc caused me to now feel and act less than a human and more primal - like? Like this is becoming the new norm for me. It doesnt feel new.. I feel like I've always been this way, even though I know I havent.
Or has Master placed hidden triggers that cause me to hump things? (Because He has done things like that in the past which I'll talk about in a future videoπ )
But in this case, I really dont have a clue. I have moments every now and then to where I notice things about me that has changed but interestingly, i never notice the change happening until its happened.
Anywaaays...
I ended up having to stop myself because I wasnt sure if this would be classed as one of my allowances to touch, I only have 3 to last me each day.. and I dont want to disobey Master.
Being allowed only 3 allowances of edging a day, I have to spread them out.. I think about my allowances all the time, I clock watch until I can use the next one. It can be really frustrating at times because each allowance feels so far away..I end up rubbing or grinding my needy pussy on random objects without realising I'm doing it sometimes..and when I do, I always stop myself.
Buuuuut!!! Luckily for me, the other day, He told me that it doesnt count as an allowance! I can hump my foot as much as I want!! πΒ did I really just say that? Oh god! What have I become?!!π
So yes, here's a video of me the other day where I happened to end up humping my foot..this wasnt planned, I was only supposed to touch my nipples very lightly or pinch them very hard for Master's entertainment.. but of course, my needy empty cunt cant control itself sometimes.
P.s.
This is a free to the subscribers on the other page . Get your horny asses over there, you're missing out on the fun π€ͺ
I wasnt expecting anyone to subscribe, it was a feature that I couldnt disable..but many of you have and I am so grateful and I want to do more gift videos for you! So please, enjoy my struggle! You deserve it! π€
