hi everyone! this is a SUPERRR long read so i appreciate tho..
🕑 Added 2021-04-06 17:33:23 +0000 UTC
hi everyone! this is a SUPERRR long read so i appreciate those that will read to the very end🥺 you may or may not have noticed that i haven’t posted in a week. im not a perfect human being! 👇🏼👇🏼
i do want to say because im a big ole baby and i want everyone to know how im feeling about everythinggggg lol i am slowly losing grip on my confidence and happiness. sex work is my full-time job. i love it so much that i tend to over-work myself without giving my body or my mind any healthy breaks to “reset”. i’ve turned into a workoholic!! that’s not good!! being a workoholic means you will get burnt out eventually (which is what is happening to me at the moment). i’m not taking enough time to brainstorm my current ideas since im always thinking about “the next idea”. this leads me to forget to do some pretty important things, leaving me unsatisfied with my overall work. i also need to start appreciating the little things in my physical life again. i wish i could be here daily 24/7 on this site but that would be physically impossible. some creators choose to queue small posts (1 image per post multiple times a day) throughout the day so that their fans are always fed. i do like this idea because it can be written like a diary rather than a published book, if you know what i mean. i’ve always chosen to create a special, usually larger photoset to post all at once so that you can slide through the post and appreciate all of my different poses. (2-25 image per post 2-4x a week) both approaches have the potential to be sexy and entertaining. before i continue, there’s a poll below that i attached so that you can share your feedback on what you would prefer from my page specifically! 🧡
but i do love that this space has provided most of us the opportunity to venture into some wild fantasies and i want nothing more than to continue providing that special space for us. ex. fetishes, domme, etc
like i said, im not perfect and i never will be! (darn!) but i’ve come up with a way to let you guys know when i’ll be taking a break from posting and hopefully it will lessen the anxiety/confusion in the room 🙈
“buffy’s day off” means i won’t be thinking about work for a few days. that i need a mental health break or else i will lose my shit and go off the rails lmao so from now on, everytime i post “buffy’s day off” with no added context, just know i’ll be back when im ready to be back. don’t freak out, im not actually leaving. just a break. i hope this will help with my communication with you guys cause im aware i’ve been sucking at that lately. and YES, if you are fellow workoholic, work breaks are good!!! without them i would have no idea what an NFT is and why the internet is going crazy over them right now! (i just spent 3 hours looking up the term this morning instead of worrying about not feeling pretty enough to shoot/film content today. i usually feel pretty but rn i just don’t lol) stay connected so you can stay sane❤️btw, buffy is my 6 month old morkie puppy that i adopted in january. she’s there for me when i go on my breaks so there’s no need to worry about me. no need to add stress during a resting period <<3
with that being said, i’ll be offline again for the next few days. i’m going to try and answer some messages since i know some of you are waiting for a reply and/or content but we’ll see how many i can do. thank you for understanding 🥺
!!! last really important thing i want to say!!GOOD NEWS! i got a new phone this week!! i chose the light green 256 GB iPhone 12 mini because my hands are tiny hehe that means my picture quality is gonna be so much better and i have more storage on my phone to create longer videos!! 😍..... bad news my computer that lasted me almost a decade broke 2 days later. fuck me, right? but hey GOOD NEWS, i went to best buy 30 minutes before closing time on the last day before they closed their doors for another month because of the pandemic and was able to order a new computer!!! i was incredibly lucky or else i’d be stuck without a computer for like a month or 2 which is a nightmare i don’t even want to begin to imagine. i’m patiently waiting for it to deliver so i can edit the custom videos I have already filmed and ready to edit.
okay i think that’s the end of my update. AHHHHH🧡please comment with a heart (if you like, no pressure) so i know you’re not gonna leave the moment i have a bad day. 🥺 being vulnerable is mf scary but it feels really good to open up. i love you guys so much and you sexy af for reading all of this. ilyyyy xo
