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Just wanted to share some plants I recently discovered at th..
🕑 Added 2021-05-04 01:59:16 +0000 UTC Just wanted to share some plants I recently discovered at the gardens. They look cool and pretty, and I can't tell if I just never noticed them before because the park is huge or if they're a new addition to the gardens. Either way, I had to document them for myself just in case. I do want to have my own garden at some point in the future. I don't really know why I would want a garden or a farm. I never grew up around either of them but I do remember wanting one or both since I was little. Was it just an activity I could do by myself? Did I want to make the rocky yard we had more beautiful? Could it have been a pretty distraction from other shit going on? Probably all of the above. But I guess I also wanted to affirm my independence. I don't like to rely on other people and I still don't which is why camming and doing this now was always kind of weird to me. Also, I liked the idea of control over what gets included and what gets weeded out. I often struggle with dealing with things I can't control that sometimes it does end up consuming me and bringing me down. Another reason could be creativity. I've always had an artistic side to me ever since I was little. I've tried to hone that skill despite people telling me that art wouldn't be able to support me. I've tried and tried to prove them wrong, but it's a lot harder than I thought it would be. I try to do a lot of things and do my best to make them work. But for how long am I supposed to try something until I realize that it doesn't work? How far can I really push myself until I break knowing that things are out of my control, yet I still try to control them? We're all meant keep trying, keep doing our best, to learn from failure and mistakes, but what if they were failures and mistakes because it just wasn't our time yet? And if so, when *is* our time? Do we ever get one? Will my persistence and hard work truly pay off in the long run? Am I just doomed to kill my garden from the start, or will I not even get the chance to have one? Idk, just some thoughts.
