I also had the chance to go to the aquarium recently. I didn..
🕑 Added 2021-07-06 02:53:06 +0000 UTC
I also had the chance to go to the aquarium recently. I didn't take any pics or clips; these are the only clips I took. It was nice... for the most part. School is definitely out and lots of people are working from home now, which means A LOT of people were there and a lot of kids too. It was cool to watch the animals, but funny to people-watch too lolz.
Going to the aquarium was something I think I needed a lot: a good break of watching and interacting with the animals and finding new things like the upside-down jellyfish-looking thing in the first clip. It helped me relieve some anxiety that I've been having and trying to get rid of bad habits that I've used for coping. I hadn't really paid attention to it before, but I noticed that I'd bite my nails a lot. I thought maybe I just liked having short nails, but maybe that was an excuse I was telling myself to keep biting myself. So over the past couple of months, I've been trying to not bite them so I can grow them a bit longer. They look kind of nice, and whenever I do have a chip, I go straight for the filer instead.
But now that I'm not biting my nails anymore, it's taken a new form: I'm gritting my teeth. And that's sort of fine if I didn't grit them so much and so hard. It'd get bad to when my gums would get inflamed and they'd bleed easily when I'd brush my teeth or chewed on something hard like cookies. So now I'm chewing a bunch of gum to keep my teeth busy lolz. I know it's not the best solution, but until I can create a better habit for it, it's what I can do for now.
I'm still trying to get used to the idea of meditation. I had watched a video about ADHD and ways to handle and cope with it. The doctor had suggested meditation but the way that he described how to do it for someone like me, I was like wow! I had tried it once after that and it'll take more practice but it was a nice tingly sensation to give my brain a bit of a break. Hopefully, deep breathing and exercising more at the gym help with it, too. I know cooking and the idea of baking makes me feel good, too. Apparently, it's good for me to have a bunch of things I want to do, as long as I rotate through them so I don't get bored and lazy.
I'm slowly learning more about myself and taking actual written notes to change some of my behavior for the better. Hopefully this provides some inspiration and motivation to better yourselves, too. We fucking got this!
