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can i use this platform like a dairy/journal? well, ima do ..
🕑 Added 2020-11-24 21:03:20 +0000 UTC can i use this platform like a dairy/journal? well, ima do it anyways and if you like to read then i thank you hehe. i feel like the future is still super scary. i haven’t made big plans for my next step in my career/future. i have plans and ideas but i haven’t pushed myself to make the first step. i really want to create a sticker/clothing line that revolves around my vaporwave/anime aesthetic for cars and such. i think i’m nervous because i know i can draw and create the designs, i’m afraid it’ll come out bad... or who to contact to manufacture.. the price of it all... like it scares me. it really dawned on me after i took my photos for the day. i laid in bed and i just felt so nervous. my heart feels so heavy and i’m just scared. i want to be held and be told everything will be okay. i wanna cry but i don’t have the time to. after i write this, i have to go on photoshop and edit for tomorrow’s patreon set and also stream. i also don’t want to publically say that i’m scared on like IG or twitter. i know everyone wants to be there for me, but i don’t want to talk about my feelings to anyone. i’m not miserable or sad. i just feel scared at times, and i just want to be told everything will be okay and to laugh. i appreciate the kind words and support for my mental health, but i just need reasons to smile instead of talking about what’s bothering me. in the meantime, i will keep swimming. i’ll keep pushing. i’ll keep being me. thank you for reading, for those who did, and thank you for giving me a place to speak my mind without judgement 🤍
