hi. some updates.
i’m gonna be moving again. my room mate s..
🕑 Added 2024-02-02 16:27:02 +0000 UTC
hi. some updates.
i’m gonna be moving again. my room mate situation isn’t really working out for me. i’m finding that i should probably just live alone. i don’t really have the means or privacy or space to stream at the hours that are convenient for me and for the people who want to watch them, which is it’s own issue. when i stream at night, everyone is asleep, so i can’t have audio or play music or talk because I don’t want to be disrespectful. but that’s not nearly as engaging as I would like to be. and I don’t want to be operating around other people’s schedules, the only time i can use audio is when i am alone in the house, and viewers aren’t really available til night. blah blah blah technical difficulties. just trying to be a respectful room mate while I am still here.
i am also struggling being so far away from family and friends in exchange for cheap rent and extra driving. i was going to get a studio for myself, but i’m having trouble picturing myself getting any more settled into my current living situation. so I’m glad I didn’t, because that would have been a lot of work to relocate. without saying too much i just don’t think our lifestyles are a good match as room mates. i am living with three dudes so yeah I’ll say less lmao. I love these guys to death, but I gotta get out of the boy house lol. I think it would also be good for all of us to not have me harassing them to do their dishes and house work lmaooooo
on a more important note, being an hour away from everyone important to me in my direct life is just killing me slowly. i am missing out on a lot of fun times and memories with them by being so far away. my best friends are also the ones who usually help me shoot my worthwhile content. now that I’m doing things completely alone I feel like I haven’t had SHIT to post and the ideas I wanna work on are gonna need extra effort. I don’t have many locations or much help where I am currently stationed. it’s getting really hard to do this as a one man show honestly, but I do have some new outfits and looks in the works and some cosplays I always wanted to finish.
this next reason is huge: i also can’t have my dogs here because there already is a dog and 3 cats here. my dogs are not quite dog or cat friendly unfortunately. I’m missing them like crazy and they aren’t getting nearly as much enrichment now that I’m not living with them or near them. This is the biggest reason I’m moving back. They’re only getting older and it’s my responsibility to exercise and take care of them. My parents are also only getting older so they are starting to have trouble with the dogs. They are my little sunshines in my life. I gotta go be there for them. And for my family.
CONFESSION TIME. Daisy is my room mate’s. I’ve never lived with cats before, I always thought I was allergic. Apparently I’m not allergic to cats, im allergic to the dust and the litter they collect. But we bonded so much, she’s always hanging out with me like literally doesn’t leave my side, follows me, sleeps in bed with me, wants me at her side when she eats, all those silly cat things and I’m struggling with that a lot honestly. i have literally been crying over this and her because I’m gonna miss her so much. sadly she is not actually my cat. but i am crying over her all the same.
regardless this was a good learning experience for me, since I’ve never lived with room mates. now I’m aware of what I want my living situation to look like and I can really start making it a goal. I think I learned a lot about myself while living here so I’m very grateful for that.
anyway if yall read this far i applaud and thank you. there’s a lot more going on than I feel comfy talking about publicly which is why I reserve my life updates for the people who are still here supporting me through the changes. thank you so much for everything and especially for giving me the space and time to grow.
