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🕑 Added 2023-04-19 16:29:33 +0000 UTC New body, new house, new me ✨ there’s a lot to read 💋 my feelings won’t be hurt if you don’t read it Thank you for your patience It’s time for some brutal honesty. I took some time off for many reasons. There is a push and pull with this job. We’re supposed told to not get too personal, or let a lot of ourselves out there. Then we’re told to dig deep and share personal things to build connections. At the end of the day, I do best just being myself and being brutally honest. We’re all human, and I love being a goddess sex pot, but I am human. This job takes a toll and sometimes I need to check out in order to gather myself and come back even harder. These past couple weeks have been a healing period for me. I had some health issues arise that I needed to handle and was advised to take as much of a break from socials and work as I could. I felt I would best express myself after I cleared my head and got into my new house. I have moved at least once a year every year since 2017. Every time I move it it’s like I’m re-born again. And this time is definitely going to be the most amazing version. I already know it. I have been diagnosed with ADHD, PMDD, BPD, and IBS. These all combined for a perfect storm during this move. That partnered with complete mental exhaustion from sex work, I had a bit of a break down. I am currently medicated and working on switching my career gears more towards twitch, streaming, blossoming my relationships here, and possibly getting back on SG a little bit. I have also made a huge life change by moving to a bigger space with a loved one, which I think is a good change for mental health. Some of you may not want to read past this, so I’ll say this now- thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here and letting me be human sometimes. And letting me entertain you and help you cum other times. I love all of you. Some of you may not know my timeline, so I would love to take this time and lay out my past few years so y’all can get an idea of WHO I am, and not just my sexual and horny side. In the summer of 2019, my husband (at the time) and I decided to sell everything and move to San Francisco on whim. For a few reasons, I wanted to be closer to the creative community on the west coast (SG) and we both dreamed of living in California our whole little mid-western lives. My parents had retired and moved away, my business was causing me stress and falling apart, I didn’t wanna die saying I never tried it. So we left. That fall, my father suddenly fell very ill and could no longer walk. He really never walked again. Then Covid hit, I could no longer do hair and make up (my previous profession). Covid hit me and my husband and my family very hard. My parents were isolated while my father was dying, my husband and I began to fight and fall apart. By august of 2020, we were separated. And by December of 2020, I left him in San Francisco and moved to Los Angeles alone. I started working nightlife in LA and drinking a lot. But I had a work family, SG and OF was going well and I loved working with people IRL again. But by August of 2021 I was a full blown alcoholic and my boss passed away, therefore my work family fell apart. One month later, September 2021, my mother and father fell ill from Covid. My father didn’t make it. For a moment, we thought we were loosing my mother as well, but she pulled through. Around that time I also totaled their car. I came back to LA and nearly drank myself to death. December 2021 I decided to change my life and get a BBL. I was DETERMINED to change my life and get healthy. By April 11th 2022, I had quit drinking and I haven’t had a drop since. Unfortunately, in May, I had a lifelong best friend unalive himself. We were friends since we were 15 and we were very very close. I took it very hard. But last year, I dived deep and did a lot of healing, I focused on porn and even filmed a scene with brazzers (that were still waiting to drop). Since then, I’ve changed a lot, I’ve stayed sober, started mainstream porn, in and out of streaming on every platform you can think of, but onlyfans and my animals, have always been a constant, thru every single process- I always onlyfans to express myself and my animals to comfort me. I also have had a handful of you through all of these things that have happened. Some of you may have known some, or even all, or absolutely none of it- I hope that with being vulnerable, I can do some good. And if not, it’s just good to get it all out sometimes. I miss blogging and writing. I actually used to write short stories and I’ve been told I should write a memoir. Cause these past two years actually barely scratch the surface of my wild life story. But it’s created me, and I love me. And with that, I just thank you, for being here and supporting me and my content, my career, and my dreams, but most of all- for loving me and letting me love you. I have a home again and I’m truly so excited for this next chapter. Now, back to our regularly scheduled slutting!
