I want you to know that nothin is real on porn.
I mean obvi..
🕑 Added 2023-04-27 22:08:52 +0000 UTC
I want you to know that nothin is real on porn.
I mean obviously there are some images, but it is like a beautiful looking food, from cheap ingredients, no salt or pepper or any spices added. Great to look at it, but it didn't produced for real exeriences it is not a real source of enjoyment.
It is actually harmful.
Nobody has ever really asked me in a production what I want. What makes me feel good. And I am not only talking about the sexual part, but appearance.
The image they make up from me. If I can assimilate with it. It wouldn't be important, really? If I feel well in the role? If I feel it myself on it?
Good example, that I hate pink. I truly disguasted from it on myself as well as silly colorful things. I feel so fake, such an idiot, it fits to me as much as nutella for carbonara. I do not feel liberated, I do not feel ike myself on it, neather sexy or attractive. It is really not matter in a production where I have to screen all those feelings? The truth it is not. I am just a fucking fake fantasy, they want to shape me into their notion. It is really attractive for you? That an other girl become the same caracter... where is the excitement on that? It is like eating the same food over and over again from a different plate.
Most of the poeple needs are really so poor I have to accept it?
The past two days was forbidden for me to smile. When I enjoyed the other, the good emotions I lived, the joy what sexuality and my partner gave me, when I faked orgasm. I wasn't allowed to smile! I would look unreal. UNREAL! For the concept of the production.
When I smile from doing something what gives me pleasure!
Isn't it absolutely insane?
People, how does that makes you happy? How does that bring you joy?
Are you mad about sex? Or what the fuck is wrong with you all who get excited about that? How could the erotic industry gown out so wrong?...
And do not think it was some random, cheap production, this is the high end of the porn industry!
Where they judge my orgasm. The progress what brings me to the climax zone it is "bullshitting". And I did not made up that expression by angriness, this is what I got today.
Let me explain it to you.
The move what brings me most of the time orgasm, is when you take away the thing - the thing... the divine cock, what made me feel so elevated. That is when I truly explote. When you take back what made me the happiest that is the point when I truly realize how good was it and brings me to the highest feelings of all. My body developed to reach that and when I am hitting the highest point of extasy, I am rejectig the sourse of joy from inside of me to reach the feeling (..orgasm..) mentioned above. Today when I was shooting, with a strap on dick my body naturally reacted in that way. I called to be hilarious and fake and even I explained them what I just did to you, they confuted me. Not only the shoot producer but the model as well, told me that this is bullshit. That is doesn't make sense it is hilarious, the footage was terribly fake and it is an absolute hoax.
I couldn't believe it.. People are judging how I reach orgasm???? PARDON?
Is that is for real? I understand it was not looking good on the camera, because it is so such an individual way of reaching the climax zone, but to call my feelings and words fake? When I am one of an only kind who would love to put real feeling on this fucking fucked up industry?? I am the one who doesn't want to fuck over people, screening made up feelings, feed the audience with unreality, I am the one who called to be fake?
(INDUSTRIAL) PORN IS THE R'APE OF SEXUALITY!!!!!
So after judging my orgasm, calling me fake and telling me that I am bullshiting when I explained my feelings, we tried to re-record the orgasm.
My body reacted in the same way. Obviously I had no chance to have an orgasm after that, but I get used to that process when I want to reach the highest point of sexual enjoyment. Because I still wanted to, put some real feeling on it and that is how my nature converted the situation for the outcome.
For that moment the shoot producer completely got pissed. He insulted me mercilessly, which brought tears to my eyes.
And what do you think anybody have been cared about it? Three other person was there and listened it all. Do you think anybody have been said something about it, while I was crying from the pain and anger in the middle of the set?
No, not at all.
I have never been so disappointed about the industry and people who work on this feeld as today. Finally I really bullshitted an orgasm what satisfied them and seems like it does mostly for the audience.
If you think that is orgasm what you see on girls face and body on films, I am telling you it now, you have never fucking ever have seen a real orgasm on a so called porn film. And I am absolutely not exaggerating!
It is impossible to cum for time, several times after each other to be recorded from different angles, in the end of a 6 hour shooting day for most of the people with a person whom they wouldn't even fuck in their real life!
Think about this next time when you are watching a sex film from an industrial porn company.
Or do you actually care? I am sure most of you have been aware of that, but convinced yourself about that there is still any truth, or you are just fine with it, porn is just a unreal fantasy anyway...??
I would love to know what do you think about this, please leave a comment.
