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I’m going to get personal here… although the world is still ..
🕑 Added 2021-12-31 17:04:30 +0000 UTC I’m going to get personal here… although the world is still shit due to the pandemic, I had an amazing year of personal change. I went from streaming MTG to OnlyFans and I couldn’t have been more happier!! The journey wasn’t easy. I had a lot of fun streaming MTG but being isolated working my 9-5 job and then turning on the stream for 4-6 hours the same night (another job) took a toll on my mental health. It was too much work and I didn’t get a lot of time to myself. It didn’t help that I felt like I had to prove myself when I was playing the game for people to take me seriously 😭 the truth is, it became really depressing to stream and I felt way more irritable. I’ve always had a positive view of sexuality. I was mulling over the idea of OF as early as March 2021 but was too scared to do actually do it. I consulted a lot of close friends and a lot of them said “you’d be throwing away something you worked hard in building up” or “it’s the easy way to get attention and no one will respect you anymore”. These comments became depressing also as I felt like I had no option but to change nothing and continue burning myself out. In the middle of 2021 I was also going through the most painful breakups of my life which I won’t really go into too much detail. So when the leaves fell in autumn, I knew something had to change or else I would be burnt out, depressed, and alone going into 2022. I took a leap with OnlyFans because I knew it would make me happy and I could go back to the beginning of my content creation journey… which is cosplaying and making up new looks and styles (something I am extremely passionate about). It doesn’t really hurt when people in the MTG community comment nasty things like “Jana was an e-thot all along” or that I “sold out and took the easy way out”. I don’t think anyone really understood how numb I was from doing the same monkey dance of my day job, cranking out stream playing MTG and pretending to be happy, reading stupid comments and the latest drama on Twitter, and being depressed because of a breakup. This OnlyFans thing makes me really happy, I get to express myself and have a safe space will all the wonderful and sometimes horny conversations I have with people like you! It’s awesome and freeing to finally feel like I don’t need to seek approval because I really believe in what I’m doing on this site. Most importantly I believe in myself!! I have so many plans in 2022, thank you to everyone who has subbed and has renewed monthly, I very much appreciate you!! If you were in the same boat as me in 2021, let’s make awesome changes coming up in the New Year to be more of our HAPPIER, authentic selves!! Sorry for the long read! xD thanks for making it this far. Pics are previews from my photoshoot in New York! Obviously fans see it way earlier than the plebs!!
