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🕑 Added 2020-12-09 22:15:47 +0000 UTC LET IT SNOW, let it snow, let it snow ... ❄️ ❄️ ❄️ I wanna share something very personal with you guys... 🥰🥺🙏🏼KEEP READING if you would like to get to know who I really am: ~ My early 20's have been some of the most difficult and darkest years of my life ... I had very little support - both emotionally and financially speaking ... I used to cry on my floor cause I was scared about not being able to pay my rent some months, not to mention that investing into music (or into my own health or beauty) was exceptionally challenging. And between the ages of 21-24, I just literally felt like I had a grey cloud of bad luck over me: ...Modelling agencies would tell me I am "too short" even though I am over 5'7 ...Record labels and radio executives would tell me that my voice is "too this" or "too that" ... my songs are "out of date, too long / too short / too rock-y / too powerful / not mainstream enough / or TOO MAINSTREAM?" the feedback was often confusing and contradicting ... it was as if they just wanted to give me a "no" without any valid reasons. The same thing applied to my social media - they would tell me "she is too beautiful" ... ? (wtf!) or "she is not artsy enough / not edgy enough .... or TOO EDGY" ... the contradictions were the THEME of my early to mid 20's ...Fast forward to 24-25 ... when my only long-term boyfriend (of 4 years and whom I thought I was going to marry one day) left me ... out of the blue .... because he no longer wanted to "support me" and he wanted to "focus on himself" (and the way he told me these things was also incredibly mean and unkind) ........I seriously thought I was going to break — I felt that things could not get worse and I even had days where I contemplated popping a bunch of pills and just calling it quits. I KNOW! It sounds dramatic but when nothing goes right and you are trying SO hard to be a good person, it makes you question your existence! BUT! I still had loving parents, some kind friends and my talents so I was NOT going to give up at the end of the day. And one day something inside me just clicked and my hunger to prove EVERYONE wrong was more furious than ever. So I KEPT WORKING SO BLOODY HARD ... I reached out to photographers, videographers, musicians, producers ... and everyone I could think of - I continued to do projects, I made money doing multiple jobs (including freelance modelling AND tutoring kids in English as a second language and psychology); I managed other people's social media accounts and created digital ads ... I did so many things while some of my best friends were making so much money at their traditional jobs, I just kept living the freelance artist life and refused to give up on my dreams. Fast forward 1.5 years and here I am! I have over a MILLION monthly listeners on Spotify; my IG has grown so much; so has my YouTube and of course - MY ONLY FANS! 😍😍😍😍😍I have multiple lovely and kind sponsors and brand partners as well as have more opportunities in music than I thought possible for a year of COVID. GUYS! I never gave up and I NEVER WILL. I am accomplishing the things I always set out to accomplish and I am here to inspire and UPLIFT! Thank you for being on here with me, for being part of my journey, and for all of your support! I am so thankful for all that I have today and I will never stop moving and growing 🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ THANK YOU xx
