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writing in september
words from september 19 2022angel, witch, god, satan, elf, fairy, butterfly.which story will you dive in today?can we just become a stick?a leaf?a droplet of water.can we become something that is still.can we dwell on the sensations of a living thing that really knows how to live?can we sit stilland...
the unknowing is the all-knowing
is every hurt or pain always a mis-communication?is every suffering that is created in the world, from a lack of a full picture.if we could see everyones full life,be in their shoes,we would see,ahhhthis is how you came to this conclusion,I understand now,how you came about this idea,or this assumpt...
what else can i let go?
i’m letting go of it all.what i have been telling myself for ages now.let go, meredith.let go.if i let it go, i let it GROW.imagine,a world where we all were constantly letting go.not white-knuckled around our desires and dreams and homes and money.if we let go whenever we noticed a holding on, a ...
i keep changing my mind.
i keep changing my mind. or i’m simply living,and realizing,i was wrong.oops, i was wrong again.when will it finally sink in,that i know nothing? the knowing,isthe unknowing. when we know THATthat is when we can think. everything is always changing,nothing is forever,nothing is an absolute solid t...
no cell service. no wifi. just the way i need it.
301222I canceled my phone planand I moved into a house that doesn’t have wifi,and I plan on keeping it that way.Last night was my first night sleeping here.it is 5:16AMand for the first time in a long time,I slept through the night.I fell asleep with Nalcoah at 8and I woke up at 5.I woke up once a...
maybe we are the flowers?
maybe we are the flowers.maybe we are the ones who need to come aliveand biteand strangle a little bit of lifeto create new life.maybe we need to strangle a little bit of our desires and addictionsand JUST GET RID OF the temptation.get it the fuck out of the house.get it the fuck out of my home. may...
from february 20 2022
i want me.i love me.i thought sleeping alone would be the hardest part of separating.but instead it has been a way back to myself.finger tip against finger tip.breathing into the four pillows pressed against my body.a night with no self pleasuringbut self pleasuring in the million little ways that p...
ready.
1812221:20 amawake for hours now.my body hurts so bad.i feel it feel it feel it.i breathe breathe breathe.i know i know i know.i’ll raise the money to buy my house in cash by the end of february.i just have to not be afraid.no, i need to let myself be afraid and stilli need to do everything im afr...
life begets life begets life, but is what we are all doing, living?
171222i get iti do new lacesnew shoes new turtlenecknew treadmillnew day of desiredesire poured into the things you’re told to crave.new sugarnew phonenew toysnew toysnew toys.you want newness,maybe you need newness.but that newness wasn’t supposed to come in the way we get it now.it’s suppose...
what is feedom anyway?
161222 4:01ameverything i wish to do in the world, i wish to do for free.because i want to,because i love to.i wish to create a free food co-opa free bed and breakfast a free retreat getaway placeto just rest in, to just be in, to just create in.how funny that when people hear the word free, they ei...
why am i always swimming against it?
151222 4:20amjust fall into the current. why am i always swimming against it.the life i dream of, he says, i have it.i photograph, he says, so i know that if i look at something differently, it completely changes it.just fall into, i say.and i tell myself,just collapse into it, into all of it.fall i...
defeated and depleted
141222 5:01 amin the bath at moms.completely defeated and depleted.but i’ll regain; somehow.i want the water as hot as it can be.this doesn’t really make sense.having yet another house to fix up and clean up and sewage to deal with.and yet.i’m not sure what else to do.i will create the world t...
riddled with riddles (version 2)
a photo for everyone.
juliet
expired roll of film that i shot of juliet in malibu - someone else took the photos of the mysterious helicopter and windmills <3her patreon is linked below 😍https://www.patreon.com/embodiedportraiture?utm_campaign=creatorshare_fan
is our technology making us feel less real?
is our technology making us feel less real? could technology be something that brings us closer to nature and not further away from it?also the type of technology we keep pursuing, that we know is wrecking havoc. i think we have so much infinite creativity to develop new forms of technology that is ...
little notes from who-knows-when-in-november
there is a way to evolve and not cause harm.there is a way to move through nature causing as little harm as possible and still going light years faster in growth with technology.a first idea is a first idea. a first idea can be a good idea, but is there a better idea? is the first idea causing harm?...
how can I not be changing the way I think
September 26 2022 you know how many times I change my mind?a-fucking-lot.every day.and how can we not? every single day is a brand new day,every single day brings brand new thoughts,ideas,conversations,interactions.how can I not be changing the way I think?or that completely sound decision I made ye...
just collapse into it.into all of it
fall into it.into all of it.into the oceansand the riversand the tearsand the painand the kissesand caressesand every good thing.it is all good.it is all for you.it is all love.
mutual compassion
yesmutual compassion.no two people will ever have the same conversation, the same understanding.no two people will ever feel the same way,think the same way.it’s all just about that.being ourselves,and others being themselves and an understanding that we are allalways learning,always growing,never...
when will we wake up?
November 22 2022 putting nalcoah to sleep tonight she asked me “when will we wake up?”and I said, “when it is light out, when the sun comes up.”she said “why when the sun comes up?”I said “that’s how she wakes us. With the light.”maybe it doesnt have to be like that. Sleeping in th...
ya'llllll i don't think this was the right decision.
not that it was the wrong decison, but maybe it wasn't THE decision.Maybe not the thing to be acted on, or maybe not carried on...?I'm learning...
Changing it all up
I'm changing a lot that is going on here.It may seem and feel and even be a little chaotic at first.I want you to all know, you are welcome to send me constructive criticism.I need all the help I can get, from anyone, from anywhere.I have ideas and I am learning how to implement them,how to crea...
i only want exposure to humans and plants
September 26 2022 life often feels too overwhelming.whether it be overwhelming pain,or overwhelming love and beauty. lately it’s been overwhelming interestand curiosity.everysingleconversation.everysingleinteraction.with anyone.withe v e r y o n e,I get a little piece of wisdom,or multiple pieces ...
