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what kind of butterfly is this

I haven't posted in a while so here's a little playtime with our beloved caterpillar. she's so into that stick and being floofing adorable. will have more content pretty soon but in the meantime, let your heart be melted by how much our cat shares my love for random sticks. just wanted y...

⛥March Q&A

Well, you've done it. You've out-questioned me. Due to the sheer number of questions you've posted, I am unable to answer everything because I'd be here for days. So I had to pick my favorite ones out of 53 for this go-around but don't worry, there will be plenty of future Q&A po...

AMA March Patreon Stream

Live Update: thanks everyone for joining our stream! hope the connection is smooth again next timeGood day, ye good peoples of Patreon! For my monthly stream I am doing an AMA from my new home. You are welcome to join and chat with me about stuff...Probably meet our cat and hear about what I've ...

everything is delicious

thank you all for the warm welcome! I thought I came here for my husband but apparently I came here to get fat aswell because almost everything here tastes amazing. catch up with how I'm settling in the new house and watch our cat do stuff. going back to work as normal after all my props and stu...

𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖒𝖆𝖌𝖎𝖈 𝖔𝖋 𝖌𝖊𝖗𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖞

with how much I like to convey my distaste for various aspects of the country, one might wrongfully assume it is all bleak and gloomy all the time. in this photo set I have compiled a few of my recent unpublished pictures from germany that are nothing short of magic. I hope you will feel the same dr...

Why do Artists delete their Best Work?

I can't even begin to tell you how many times I've been asked that."Why did you delete X video? It was my favorite!"Followed by a series of demands to bring it back, oh and also make more of their favorite content.You think this kind of feedback would expire at some point, would slow...

⛥ February Download

My official last main videos and last mp3 downloads before the move! I am so excited and I hope you enjoy them ⛥

Why do you want to come to the USA?!

Now that I am leaving my "home country", I get a lot of questions about why I want to come to America when America is undoubtedly in shambles. So I made this video to tell you my situation, talk about my time in this apartment and escaping narcissistic abuse and the PTSD I suffered from than...

⛥ Paranormal ⛥

Thank you for joining in and listening to my paranormal stories! Someday I'll have another collection of spooky stories to share with you, but probably not soon. Nonetheless, I'm looking forward to streaming for you from a different continent next month!Watch the Sunday stream here

☽🎕𝖗𝖎𝖙𝖚𝖆𝖑 𝖇𝖆𝖙𝖍🎕☾ || centering

❧ no music versionWhat is this! An aesthetically pleasing ritual bath?! Yes!Y'all seemed to be a huge fan of my ritual bath for energy from last year. Contrary to the solar energy I've had the honor to provide last time, this one features intense eclipse energy. But do not fret! Some peopl...

⛥February Q&A

Good morning! I hope you're all doing ok considering. I'm running on caffeine and snacks today but damn life needs to chill on the trauma triggers cause I am tired of dealing with severe psychological distress while moving. Just a part of life and golden opportunity to reevaluate if I should...

wake up gently - outtakes

the AUDACITY of this fridge to be doing its job!

𝓇𝑒𝒻𝓇𝒶𝒸𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃𝓈

some inspiring photos for your viewing pleasure. I'm cleaning out my media today and found these gems that really tickle my aesthetic bone and thought I'd share them so you can feel what I feel when I look at them. they are free for personal use (obviously do not steal them). I live for phot...

An Evening for My Valentine

Rediscovering video creation as an art form"Never make art out of obligation", as one of you guys put it - I was inspired to make this goth af profession of love by the man who awakens the poetry in me. The words came naturally, the rhythm flowing smooth as the currents of the ocean. The ima...

Sneak Peek

I'm not even gonna tell you what the next video is going to be. Y'all can guess. 😂

toss or keep?

⛥ my discord group picked the thumbnail ⛥you have been blessed with quality entertainment once again! go through all my clothing with me and decide what to toss or keep.⛥ like if you laughed so I know you think I'm funny ⛥

⛥ January Download

Greetings! Apologies for the delay. Been busy. Here are your complementary mp3 downloads since the last download post. I hope they will continue to bring you tingles and cozy vibes!

☽ release ☾

Spell is complete. So far I'm getting great results from it. For myself I chose to release everything that's holding me back from getting my life in order and living deliciously. Now I'm naturally gravitating towards processing the things I've been avoiding. Reading old comments that...

🌱 guess the asmr trigger🌼

Thank you for joining my mystery trigger game =D Sleep tight and dream of pinecones and brusheswatch part 1 here

my standards are too damn high and I'm finally ready to admit it

I've been having serious sleep problems. Due to all of the appointments I keep having to center my life around at the moment, my body lost its wake-sleep cycle I've been training it to adhere to the past 4 years. With me having to either wake up early or stay up late to get moving preparatio...

⛥ January Q&A

Good morning! It's a beautiful warm day today and by that I mean it's above freezing - which is a welcome change from the nonstop snow we've been getting where I live. I can't even begin to describe how wonderful the air smells. There's nothing more invigorating than the smell of...

𝚠𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚞𝚙 𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚕𝚢

I don't know what to say. You hyped up this video like no other and I was surprised to see such enthusiastic responses to my sneak peek. I can only assume y'all need some comforting vibes in the mornings as much as I do. Though I don't watch my own ASMR, I have to sit through it at least...

𝚠𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚞𝚙 𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚕𝚢

A new video I'm working on. After much debating whether or not I need to re-record all the tracks for my TON singing video due to my apparent inability to sing a full song in the same key, I started working on a short-ish low-key video to help you wake up. What better way to set a relaxed mood f...

♂ so you wanna date [sun sign] ♀️

today's bonus video features some fun and humor. with all the complex demands of my other tasks and responsibilities, I find myself retreating into my comfort zone which is shitty zodiac content. try not to take anything I say in this video personally, I assure you I don't judge people by th...

𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖕𝖞 𝖓𝖊𝖜 𝖞𝖊𝖆𝖗

A video about my goals for 2021 and what to expect in terms of content while I'm gearing up to move. Post your goals below so I can give you encouragement and validation 👍

⛥ December Q&A

Happy New Year! I sincerely hope this year will bring lots of blessings, growth, good fortune and opportunities for us all. I also hope that you were able to catch a break and recharge your batteries after the admittedly exhausting holiday season. I, for one, went into full hibernation mode last wee...

Sneak Peek!

I feel like I needed to use a different word but I couldn't find one. Because "sneak peek" implies there's something to look at, but instead, this time - it's something to listen to! I've gotten a few comments asking if I'd be doing another TON singing video and the time ...

☽ 𝖗𝖎𝖙𝖚𝖆𝖑 𝖇𝖆𝖙𝖍 ☾ || blood

❧ no musicDark, yet sacred. Sanguine salvation.I will admit this is among the most self-serving videos I have ever done. The inspiration for it was derived from not wanting to waste precious props from my video 𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖇𝖆𝖓𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖙. I decided to throw them all in a bea...

🌲 therapeutic holiday crafting asmr 🌲 part 2

Live Update: part 2 today at 8PM Berlin time!rewatch part one hereHello! I hope you're doing well and staying calm in all the holiday stress. With it being December, I scheduled this month's live stream earlier than normal as I didn't want to impose on your holiday plans. I support and e...

𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖇𝖆𝖓𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖙 outtakes

the long awaited outtakes! yes they are long but it was a long video. watch me struggle and improvise for a half hour straight in this behind the scenes! XD